Let me sleep...

I've had these same kinds of dreams, half night terrors before, but this time the dream was deeper and I wasn't alone. I lay in my bed, felt someone move over me. I kicked it off but it crawled back on top of me. I tried to hide under my blanket but it pulled it away and touched my leg. Then it moved over my boyfriend, I could see how it did the same to him. I felt I had to pee, and got up, I told myself "This is just a dream, just a dream". I tried to put on the lights to wake me up, but nothing happened. I saw something move and I got scared so I crawled back beside "A". The spirit/ghost whatever it was crawled on top of me again, this time I could see it clearly, I was almost awake and I saw it move on "A" and it touched his feet. "A" said "Tell it to leave me alone". I started, or tried to yell "Leave us alone! Go away!" but no one could hear me. I tried to fight them and even took my cellphone and tried to snap photos but it didn't take any pictures. Then I remembered I should pinch myself to make we wake, since I was in a half state, sort of awake but still dreaming. I pinched myself but nothing happened, until everything went blank and I woke, feeling scared, so scared I was too afraid to get up and go pee. These dreams have usually lasted for just a couple of minutes, and usually when I've been sleeping alone, since "A"'s body is not attached to me, but I was like a weener between a bun inside my blanket so he's body could not touch mine. Stupid stupid ghosts... stole my sleep.

Please listen to these...

Our office was loft like, with red brick walls, and a twilight kind of lighting. My desk was where it is normally.. I was looking at  "Gavin's" back and daydreaming. I then noticed when going to the toilet how he looked at me the whole way back to my seat. I was wondering what's up. A moment later he came to me, threw a bunch of CD's on my desk and said "Listen to these, there are some good songs". He had marked which songs I should listen to. In the pile there was albums by Metallica, Papa Roach, Green Day, Bullet for My Valentine and some more. I looked at them and started listening, they were all the same style (except the Metallica songs), the kinds you listen to when you're heartbroken or angry over some relationship issues. The first song contained a video of someone beating up someone, like 80's style, then a Metallica song started playing. I could hear "Gavin" listen to Bullets "A place where you belong". I went through the CD's and in one I found a piece of torn paper, with my name on and a list of the songs I should listen to, the numbers. There was number 4, 14 and the rest I can't remember. The cover was red, it was supposed to be a Green Day cover, but looked more like Papa Roach "Love Hate Tragedy" - album. I looked at "Gavin", who looked sad and disappointed. I hid under my desk and kissed the paper only to notice this guy from work looking at me. I tried to cover up kissing the paper and I put it away and continued with whatever I was doing.

Planecrash

We we're on a company business trip. Most of our office. It was in Sweden and when we're about to leave there was a problem with the plane. We took off normally, but suddenly when I looked out of the window I saw we were flying between buildings, really low. The plane made loops and all kinds of things and I was sure we were going to crash any minute. Then we made an emergency landing. The airline informed that we need to take off again, from a short lane, so there'll only be about 100m of runway and a jump at the end so we can reach 400 kmh. I thought we are going to die. The captain didn't look too experienced and I said I want to take the boat home. Everyone said I was not allowed, that I have to fly home. They also said the flight would last for approximately 4 hours. I thought what the hell, it should take an hour. I saw a piece of ground being moved to make another runway for another plane and then it was our turn. I took my co-worker inside the terminal, since it says on our timetable we had lunch at 15:30 and then one hour later was the take off. We went inside the terminal only to notice we'd have to go trough security and everything AGAIN, and there was no time for food since the lines were so long. Suddenly we were back in the plane, which was covered in red velvet from the inside. I sent "A" a text saying we're delayed and it'll take 4 hours!!! for the flight, he just said he'd wait for me at home. When the plane took off I could just think about "Gavin", that if we're going to crash I want to be next to him on the plane... (wtf!??!)

One messed up party

We were at a friend’s house, she was having a get together weekend, party sort of thing. It was just a few friends, my sister, “A” and me. Everyone else was drinking except me, I only had one drink, orange or pineapple juice and just a small amount of vodka. They had a huge house and we were all sleeping downstairs, my sister in the middle room, beneath the stairs. Me and “A” in a room to the left and my friends to the right. There was yet another room, that had its own bathroom. “A” started feeling sick so he went to the extra rooms bathroom but couldn't throw up and I suggested we'd change the room so he's be closer to a bathroom but he switched back and forth between the rooms.


Then when I thought everyone was settled and ready to go to sleep everyone got up and continued partying. Outside there was a smaller house where a lot of people had gathered. I had still had only one drink and I ran to the house and it felt like I was super drunk and I fell and rolled for a while on the ground, I couldn't stop and I got a lot of sand in my mouth. I tried to spit it out and rinse it out but it didn't want to come out of my mouth and I nearly choked. Everyone thought I had more than just one drink. “A” was checking out every single girl there, that he didn't know from before and there was some blond girl who was really thin, like a model and she had a top that showed her nipples through. He was checking her out and then she made a move and I got really pissed off, threw my iPhone on the ground so that it broke in half. The only thing keeping the phone together was a pink rubber cover. i took my phone and started beating that blonde and another girl who were all over "A".


I was really angry "A" so I told him, fine if you want someone else do whatever you want! I went to find his smokes since mine was out. I found his pack, empty. People had smoked them. I then found a basket full of smokes but a girl who went to the same high school as I did (a bitch!) took them from me, suddenly it was her party, not my friends anymore. I felt drunk as hell, even if I still had only had one drink. Everything was really confusing. Then I saw “A” walk away from the party with a girl who is a friend of his. He had cut his hair and I went and asked what's going on and the girl said I have to leave him alone. He looked really sad. I had no idea of what was going on. Then I saw my sister and my friend and I got some cigarettes from them. We sat down and talked for a while. Then I saw “A” coming back, and his hair was like it is now. I thought everything was really weird.


The next I remember was that I had blood on my hands and I saw “A” get dragged away by some bad man. He dragged “A” to the other, smaller house and the bad man held a lot of the guests hostage. He threatened to cut “A”s penis and balls off. “A” was already bleeding from other injuries. I was crying because I thought the man was going to kill “A”. “A” said everything will be fine, that we'll be fine even if the man would hurt him, as long as he would get to be alive and together with me. All I could think was that I don't want him to get killed but if that bad man hurts him we can never have sex again, but I'd still get to be with him, but still no sex. The bad man gave me 5 minutes to get things fixed or he'd hurt “A”. I was crying hysterical, was nervous and tried to find my phone. I found it only to realize it was broke, now already in 3 pieces. I tried to wake up people by bursting in to their rooms and asking for a phone. I don't remember what I needed to do for the bad man.. I never found another phone so I tried to put my broken phone together and I tried to call the cops. Every time I got my phone together and was able to get through to the cops my display went black and I could not use the navigator to see where we were. I got to tell the woman cop we were in Nebraska (WTF!??!) and then closer and closer to where we actually were. The cops were getting closer and I finally could tell them where we were. And they found us. I had got cuts from the glass of my phone (when my phone broke it was the iPhone 3g but when I found it, in 3 pieces it was the new iPhone 4). I was so happy I got “A” back, in one piece even if he had cuts and was bloody. We went to a room and were about to have sex, when that girl who had tried and hit on him, had suddenly turned brunet and she was naked and came in the room. I told her to go away that he doesn't want her that can't she just leave us alone. She pushed herself on him so I was "fine, 3 some then, but I decide!". She was the most flat chested girl I had ever seen and “A” started licking her right nipple and I her left, but it felt like licking a guy who has no chest hair. Then we went on the bed and I was on top of “A” and that other girl was trying to come between us but I pushed her on the floor... the end.

Going back one year...

October-November 2010 I saw many dreams about vampires, and "A" being unfaithful (well at that time we were in an open relationship, so basically not cheating but still fu*king someone else). Here are 4 dreams I still remember.

I was having a smoke on my balcony when there was a vampire flying outside it. She asked if I could pass her some light. So I invited her to my balcony. She lit a smoke and I wondered how come vampires smoke, and how come she's flying during daylight and how come she's not killing me. Then she said she's like any normal human, except the flying and being a vampire. Then she told me about good and bad vampires. Before I knew it we started to see black shadows coming our way and she said I was to go inside. The bad vampires had come to get me. She then stayed outside and fought with them.

I was running around on our parking lot, between cars, downstairs in the parking hall, trying to hide. I was supposed to collect every one of the colored girly things that were spread around the neighborhood. If I remember correctly I had only one more to get, and I think it was purple. The whole thing was about me being free when I find them all, then the vampires can't hurt me anymore.

I was on a field, with a trailer on it. "A" (not my bf at the time, this is when we were on a break from being in the open relationship), had sex with "Gertrude" on the couch. I went in, pulled her off "A" and called her a bitch and kissed "A" in front of her, so she left. "A" was all over me. Then later the same thing happened. "A" was having (well almost) sex with this other girl and I got rid of her again, but I made sure she had to watch how hot "A" was for me and how much he liked when I gave him head, something she could never do as good as me... Then I got him to myself.

"A" and I were not together, at all at the time. Not in the dream, not in real life.
I was in what seemed like a monastery up in the hills in Tibet (or China somewhere). High on the mountains, with a perfect view. The house was like a typical red-painted Chinese monetary like building. I was in a room with red flying thing curtains, that we're flying because the balcony door was open. I was laying on the floor on big satin pillows. There was this old Chinese lady who was my guardian. I was the Queen Vampire and going hot. I had on my just a satin robe that was slightly open and i was touching myself, near to come all the time. The more aroused I got the more crazy other vampires became, who tried to get in my room, but the old woman said I was not to let anyone else near my, nor touch me and I could not let myself come, that we have to wait for "A". The vampires were also becoming more aroused the more aroused I became and the whole dream was just filled with sexual tension.

Want some dick?

I was at the shopping center close to my house, it's not like a big house with stores, but like an old one, with a open market place, a couple of small stores and several pubs. Anyhow, I was assisting our assistant decorating a Christmas tree, which was on a table, only about 1 meter high and it had a foot, a couple of branches and on branch that was vertical in the shape of a circle. I remember laughing a bit and thinking it was the weirdest Christmas tree I had ever seen. I was hanging really cute ornaments, in the shape of words like "love" and bow ties and hearts, all made of silver. Then I went to help the boys in a pile of snow and talking with this one guy, "Gavin" and then we were laughing and then he said "Do you want dick?" and smiled. I wasn't sure if he was serious or what, but he was, thought if I wanted to have sex with him since "A" wasn't giving it... I was really confused and just thought to myself that "But I had amazing sex last night with "A" and we're still together", and never said anything out loud, I just smiled.

Vampires

When me and "A" were having an open relationship last year I saw a lot of dreams about vampires for a while and then he announced he'd met someone he want's to be with so we can't see each other anymore. That all ended and he wanted to get back together for real, no more open relationship and so on. I have not seen a dream about vampires since then, until now. Maybe it has something to do with me watching Vampire Diaries, but I think it has mostly to do with the fact that I feel exactly like I felt last year, also November, that he's not true to me. Now he will be away for 3 days and my biggest fear is that when he gets back it'll all be over, since he's going to be away from me a few days. That's why the vampire dreams.

I was going up the stairs to our local night club, where I was to meet a friend. None of the lights were on, just small blurry table lights. Everything was smokey and black. I then noticed it was a party for vampires. I was scared and then my friend came. We talked and then I realized I was a vampire too. I don't know if she was. Then something happened and I got really scared. Someone was after me and vampires tried to attack me. So I ran, to a car... had something to do with "A". Then I met a guy who's attended my sisters class in middle school, we hid in the dark, sat on this bench and lighted a smoke. Then I noticed a police car driving really fast, with the sirens on, to the nightclub and I realized I had dropped my drivers license on the bar floor and knew the cops would be after me, so I had to go home and lock the doors, and at the same time I was thinking something about destroying evidence and leaving my place... Then I woke preeeeetty scared.

Public nudity

I have seen 2 different dreams about public nudity this week (been so busy I haven't had time to write them down).

First I think it was on Monday I dreamt I was going to the hospital to this very embarrassing examination (which I have to go through in real life). The hospital looked like a normal hospital but none of the rooms had doors and some were missing walls. My examination room, where I should be almost naked whit my lower half bare for the doctor had no door, actually only 3 walls too and it was kind of outside with a path in the forest going by and there was a man of different ethnicity looking as he wished to see something. I told the nurse I will not strip in front of other people than the doctor and certainly not in front of some gross foreign men who have no respect for women even in normal day to day life that he is there only to look at my private parts. She said that the hospital is trying this new "openness" thing between people, so that people would learn that nothing is embarrassing and learn to look at other people naked. I told her I'M NOT GETTING NAKED! I'M NOT GOING TO GET EXAMINED IN A HOSPITAL WITH NO PRIVACY! 

The other dream was probably the following night, on Tuesday. I only remember we were in the forest, was some outdoor happening, might have been with my co-workers, at least some of them. Suddenly I was naked and why, was because there was something I wasn't supposed to do with my clothes on. Later I was going to eat whit my mom, it was some kind of a terrasse and the table was like a park table with 2 benches. Suddenly I was naked again, with only a white hat to cover my private parts. No one else seemed to notice I was naked but I was so embarrassed. My mom said I had to be naked to be allowed to sit and eat, but no one else was naked and I refused to sit down with my boobs bare, since I could't hide them and my other private parts and eat at the same time so I just stood against a wall trying to cover up myself.

I read from the dream analyse thing that dreaming about nudity like this is because I'm trying to hide something, even though I'm not. I think it's only because I'm so against the doctors appointment and it will be the most embarrassing thing I ever have to go trough and I don't want to do it, but I have to and I just hope that day would be over, but it's 2 weeks of waiting on something I don't want to go trough. If ti was a lady doctor I think it wouldn't matter but these kinds of doctors tend to be male and I really don't want any man, if I hope it's some old guy, I'll die if it's some young guy... If I ever have to go back, if they aren't able to fix the problem this time I will demand a woman doctor. And the last thing I will allow is students to attend my appointment, since my hospital has a deal with the University, but I won't allow any other people to be in the room than me and the doctor and a nurse if it's necessary.

Blue cake and raw meat anyone?

During the weekend I had several dreams that I could remember, however I have now forgot all but one and a piece of one. One dream was about food, me and "A" had made dinner and while I was eating (it was pork or chicken) I noticed that some was still raw and I tried to eat around the raw parts, and a weird thing was that the raw parts were on the outer side of the meat, not in the middle as it should be... . Another dream was about a blue cake. We were at "A"'s summer place with his cousin, "Niccie", and her family. I stood in the kitchen which was like our kitchen at home, except for a baking desk in front of the window. When I looked out of the window the scene was a mix of our home yard and their summer place cliffs. When I went outside it was their summer place, although it didn't look exactly like it does. Anyhow, I was supposed to bake a birthday cake for Niccie's mom and Niccie was supposed to help, but she run around outside. Every now and then I asked if she was going to help me or what.. and she always said she'd come in a minute. I was almost done with the dough and imagined a cooked blue cake in my head and remembered I should make it blue, but I couldn't find the blue candy color and remembered I had thrown it away (I have or had, maybe thrown away the blue candy color I had at home).

Grandma making a mess

Finally I can remember a dream, although I'm already lost parts of it but here's what I do remember. I had organized my closet and all my clothes were in perfect order. Some how my sisters clothes and my boyfriends clothes were also in the same closet and I was supposed to go through my sisters clothes and organize them too, but i had to go out somewhere. When I got back home (which btw was way different than my house) I saw my grandma doing something with all our clothes. She had come over to clean the closet, which I had just did. My mom said I should let her do it and I said I had just done it and now she's ruin it all and I have to do it all over again. Then my mom assured that my grandma will put everything in the right order and there's no worries. But when she was finished all our clothes were in random piles. "A"'s shirts were in a pile with my clothes, my sisters underwear where my clothes were and so on and I was so mad and annoyed and tired that I would have to separate all our clothes and then organize them all, once again.... In this dream there were a lot of other things and details that I can't remember anymore, all I can remember is that there was a knit blouse that was blue and it had big loopholes... I think it was supposed to be my boyfriends, although he would never own anything like it.

Running from the devil with Rachel Weisz

September, 2011

It all started with my sister and I being on a trip. Some friends were there too. We took a room in this old house where Rachel Weisz and at that time the man was [dammit I forgot who it looked like]. We payed the room and then we went to a zoo, or aquarium. There were these huge water tanks with different kinds of sea creatures in them. In one there was these weird slimy dark brown things that sucked things inside them, and other scary dangerous creatures. We wanted to swim in one, but to get to the one with the seals and dolphins we had to kind of walk through the other containers, somehow hanging on the edge and walking on the seams of the tanks. I was dead scared I would get grabbed in the foot by those brown slimy sucky things. We managed to get to the seal and dolphin pools. They were separated, with a wall between them and we were hanging out in the middle, in the water, fully dressed. I was thinking how would I get my jeans and shoes dry. We played with the dolphins and seals for a while, they were doing tricks. Then we got back to the house. We had rented a room for 3 days. The house was an old white villa and really nice. I remember I painted my fingernails green and Rachel was there painting hers red. They were green too at the beginning. my sister was somewhere out with the rest of our friends. I had both my cellphones on a bureau downstairs because we were hanging out with Rachel. The man, Rachel's husband [who was some actor but I can't remember who] came and seemed really mad. He started getting more mad, I didn't know why and Rachel said we have to run. The guy was like a monster, chasing us. I had just painted my left pinkie red so I smelled of nail polish. I run upstairs and tried to find a hiding place. I found a small space between a wall, like some kind of a flower pot shelf. I noticed there was a crack in the wall and pushed it and found out it was a door. It was an old closet, which had been made to a tiny tiny toilet. I have no idea how anyone was able to go there on their "business" since I sat on the toilet seat and had my feet on the sink. I could see the man come upstairs and I was afraid he could smell the nail polish. But he didn't see me. after a while I went downstairs since I needed my phone. I was thinking I had to run out and get us a new hotel room somewhere but I had no money left after booking this place. I got downstairs and grabbed my phone, tried to text my sister when I saw Rachel and that guy, who had now transformed into Bruce Willis. She looked really scared and Bruce was holding her arm really tight, hurting her. He suddenly turned bright red, like the blue man group guys but red instead of blue, and his clothes was like a shiny tight jumpsuit. Then he started coming closer to me so I hit him, in the nose so that the tip broke. He got furious and I managed to run out, he followed but at the door he's appearance changed back to normal. The street was full of small children and I said to him "You wouldn't hurt me in front of all of these kids would you...?". He looked at them and at me and closed the door... Then I woke up.

Night terrors

Friday, September 30, 2011

I have this thing called sleep paralysis. And during these paralysis periods I see night terror dreams. They feel real, more than a normal dream and it's always the same dream, a cat that jumps on to the bed and walks on me, over my blanket and meows, sits on me for a while and then jumps on the floor, or then it's some person in my room who sits by my bed, stares me in the face and then starts slamming the bedroom door and I yell stop stop.. When I wake up I'm really scared. This only happens when I fall asleep on my back or roll over on my back (normally I sleep on the side). These also have only happened when I've slept alone, so not in a while, not since my boyfriend moved in with me, probably becuase we sleep so tight to eatchother I have some connection to my body all the time. However, last night I fell asleep on my back. First I dreamt that I was still living at my parents house and our old guineapig had it's cage in my room. I got home and saw it lay there suffering with eyes that where shouting "help me help me" so I asked my mom to take a look at her, since I can't really deal with suffering animals. She said she'd look at the guineapig. Next day when I got home the guineapig was still in the cage, in the same postition, looking at me with the same eyes and it had started wasting away, it was all thin and dry... I told my mom it was still there... Then I woke and fellt really weird, really anguished, but I soon fell asleep again, on my back. It didn't take long until I felt horror and I felt really frightened, I knew I was asleep and somehow paralyzed. I could feel I needed to pee really bad but I was asleep and couldn't move. I lay there what seemed lika a couple of minutes, feeling really scared. Then I woke up and realized it was again night terrors caused by the sleep paralysis. 

Wrooom....

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

This is the second time I dream the same thing, I'm driving a motorcycle, a matte black Yamaha R6. I'm about to drive on the highway but even if I'm only driving about 50kmph it feels like I'm going a lot faster and I need to slow down to 40kmph. Luckily there is a lane because of construction work so everyone has to drive 40kmph. I'm driving pretty good but I have no idea of how to shift so I'm driving with the first gear the whole time, and the bike sounds like it and I'm embarrassed and afraid it's going to heat up too much.

What, where, who...?

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

I've dreamt really weird and messed up dreams, felt like 5 different dreams inside the same dream, but nothing really clear, like last night I was ordering food in the middle of the night and my sister and a couple of friends had already ordered, 2 had some creamy sauce and my sister had potatoes and beef and when I asked what the prize was they all said something between 4-5€ and that it's so expensive and not worth paying for, I just thought it was really cheap (since dishes like that normally cost 10-15€). Suddenly I was at this guys, "Larry's", place I used to hook up with. My friends where going through some things in his living room and I was asking what they were doing there and aren't they afraid they'd get caught. They asked me to join them, can't really remember what we were doing. Then I heard "Larry" and his fiance talking in the kitchen and I thought I'd sneak out before they see me. He noticed me and came to talk to me, wasn't even surprised to see me, seemed more happy. He pushed me against the wall and was super flirty and I asked what he was doing, what the hell had gone into him. Then there was some place where everything was pink... And 2 other places but I can't remember what they were.

Getting ill?

Monday, September 12, 2011

I had an urine infection a couple of weeks ago and I dreamt last night that I was going to the doctor to get pills for an urine infections. She prescribed me some medicine so I went to the drugstore to get them. On the way there was 2 other girls also on the way from the doctors to the drugstore, I thought I'd beat them by taking another route, which was way faster, but they beat me. The drugstore had just opened and I got number 2, the got number 1 (obviously). Then when the pharmacist pushed the line number button and next in line was number one. I thought "Yesss, thank god I'm only the second so I can get home faster". Then it was supposed to be my turn but they took number 10 to the counter. Then number 6, then number 1 again. I made a complaint and one of the pharmacist said I could be next. I started feeling really ill and she took me to a counter with a safety glass, like she thought I was some druggie and a threat. I gave her my prescription and she looked at it and then looked relieved. She said I had medicine for sinusitis, urine infection and a frontal sinus infection. I felt really weak and wondered if the I had gotten more ill because the doctor had prescribed me more medicine or how did I end up with these illnesses and medicine. I then left the pharmacy and looked for the shortest way to the buss, on the way there was an old lady and a hobo junkie with a cut on his finger. He started following me and yelling something, I grabbed the granny and told her we should go another way, then he started running after us, so we ran into this shopping mall and told a McDonald's worker to call the security guard. The hobo junkie looked around for us and the granny stayed to look at some jewels. Then "A" called and said I should call his dad because he's about to leave from home and will drive by us, and he could drive me home... Then I woke to a terrible head ache and a ache in my sinuses. I hope I'm not getting ill... 

Sexting...

Monday, September 5, 2011

There was something something something... I was hanging out with "A" in our room when he got a message to his phone and I could see the content partially, was from some girl and she was writing something about his penis, so I grabbed the phone and asked him what the hell? He said it was nothing to read, that I shouldn't read it. But I said that if there is some girl writing about YOUR penis, I'm allowed to see what the hell she is saying. I read it she wrote that she is now even more excited to see him and is looking forward to getting to play with his penis, especially after the picture. I asked "A" what she meant and he said I shouldn't scroll to older messages, that there's nothing interesting. I scrolled up and found a picture of him, naked with a boner, that HE had sent to HER! I got furious, asked what the hell and he just sat on the bed and said it was nothing and laughed. He told me they'd met a few weeks ago on a boat (in my dream it was one of his workplace's) and the girl works there, but we were fighting back then and it was just a game. Then I asked why he'd then continued, and sent the picture 2 days ago, when we were not fighting or anything. He just laughed and said it doesn't mean anything. He never said sorry or anything about sending a naked picture of himself to some other girl. She then called while I was holding the phone but he grabbed it and she hang up before I had the chance to say what I had to say to her. I got so furious at "A" that I went out, noticed apparently we lived on a houseboat, so I stepped out, pushed the boat around so it turned on it's side and water started running in. Some couple looked at me horrified.. I just walked away.

Killing Eric Robers

Sunday, September 4, 2011

After being awake because of illness since 1:30am Saturday I saw one crazy dream on the night between Saturday and Sunday. I can't really remember the beginning but I can remember I was forced to live in this old house, interior decoration was like in the '70s and I hated it. Eric Roberts was my new dad and I was back to being about 16. There was no problems with the family I had to live with but I still hated the house and them and I wanted back home and to my boyfriend. I couldn't understand why I had to be living with those people. I tried to escape but Eric Roberts always stopped me. Then one night he said "I don't want to do this but you're being difficult" so he had a Victorinox army knife in his hands. He tried to kill me. I got away and I got the knife. No one else was at home. I managed to get away for a few minutes. I was so scared. Then Eric went away and I hid behind this one damn ugly old chair, I found another Victorinox, a blue one, the first one was red. So I now had 2 knifes. The red one had the big knife pulled out, so I pulled out the tiny saw from the blue one. Then I heard Eric coming back, and I thought I could now attack him since I had 2 knifes. He had found a red one too, and had the big knife pulled out. We started fighting, like we had swords. He lost his knife and I ws able to stab him a bit. I couldn't push it too far in since I felt how it cut through the flesh but he was coming on and trying to kill me so I continued stabbing him, deeper and deeper. I made two deep cuts with the red knife and one with the blue saw. He then gave up and told me I had one and he started walking away. Some man came and picked him up and they drove away in a big blue wan. I started cleaning the knifes from the blood, managed to get most of it gone but not all. I ws thinking about driving out somewhere near the sea and dumping them there, but it was winter so everything was frozen. I put the knifes in a glass with water and lemon juice.. somehow I thought the lemon juice would make the blood disappear and destroy the DNA. The next morning I went to school and heard on the news the police had found the blue wan with a body inside. I got nervous and just tried to figure out how to get rid of the knifes... Then I woke. Haha, maybe too many episodes of Crash lately.

In Amsterdam with Dave Grohl & Rowan Atkinson

Friday, September 2, 2011

Last night I had another dream I can remember. I was in our town, shopping in this shop selling street wear when suddenly I saw Dave Grohl, the lead singer of Foo Fighters walk in. They had a concert in our town that night. I saw he noticed me, or a guy from he’s posse (not any of the current members). I walked out from the store while they stayed there. The next I remember was that I had just arrived to Amsterdam, it was 6pm, dark, but still warm. I met a friend of mine there, who brought along one of her friends, who had the weirdest name and I started thinking what a weird name. We walked along the main road and every now and then on the shopping street. It looked the same but the shops were different. I think it was a Friday or Sunday and I knew all the shops would close at 6pm, so right about now. My friend asked what I wanted to do and I told her we could just walk around, that I'll shop tomorrow. All I could think about was how much I wanted to go buy food, different kinds like burgers, pastries and anything fatty and good, so that I could go chill out in my hotel room, watch TV and eat. It started raining and we wanted to smoke (just plain cigarettes) so we stopped outside this restaurant when I thought we should move so that we won't get complaints about the smoke going in or us being in the way, so we moved and suddenly an angry older Asian guy pushed us and said something we couldn't understand, so we just moved under the next marquis. Suddenly I got a map in my hand, I have no idea who gave it to me. It was some secret pass way under Amsterdam. I followed the map, alone and found myself in some blue tiled hallway with small shops. On the map there was 2 marks as "hidden doors". I was right where they were supposed to be but I couldn't see anything. There was some woman who showed me how to open them, so she pushed with both hands against the wall and it started slowly move backwards. Behind it opened a small café. I went in and there was the waitress asking me what I want. I didn't know what they had and looked around. I was with Rowan Atkinson and another actor and 2 actresses (can't put a name to their faces). I joined them and Rowan was making funny faces and imitating Mr. Bean and Johnny English. Then one of the actresses asked if I thought he was well "packed" down there and you could se the contours of his penis. The actress then started playing with his pants and the contours. I told her it looks through his pants like "A"'s penis, so if it is similar, then he has a big one. She got really excited and hopped on him. While they were getting it on the waitress brought me a schnapps glass with some tea or something, I drank it in one sip and she looked at me like I was a freak and said she could never drink it all at once since it's so strong. It tasted like pale green tea. Then the other actress got mad at the one hooking up with Rowan and said something about "So right away when we get divorced you just jump on him"... They continued fighting so I left. I saw the other secret door, pushed it open and then my friend was back in the picture, said we have to go now. I wanted to take a picture of the secret place but it started closing when I got my camera ready. We run and I came to one of the canals. Someone said the canal wasn't the one I was looking for so I continued running until I got to a huge canal and jumped in. The water was just to my ankles. Then suddenly I was back on the shopping street. I saw that the Tommy Hilfiger store was still open so I went in and right in front of me was all the clothes on sale. I found some awesome sweatpants, dark blue 3/4 length with Tommy Hilfiger printed on one side, only 7€, then I found some tops and was it another pair of pants too, they all were 4€ or 7€. Then suddenly my mom and dad appeared, and I was to go with them to look at fancier clothes than sweatpants and tops. Around this time I saw Dave Grohl with his posse walking in and I was all OMG now they are here! That friend of his saw me again and smiled. I started talking to Dave and he said "oooh yeah, I saw you a couple of days in [city name] in that skate shop, xxxx [the name, I can't remember]" and then he joined me to walk around in the store. When he saw my mom he started talking about how she's the perfect woman, something he's been looking for, for some project. He kept kissing her hands and was blown away. Then I asked if we could take pictures. First my mom would take but I asked my dad since all my moms pics always get blurry. Then Dave said they have to start going and I looked at the pictures, you could barely see it was Dave, was half a face or an arm in the way. I then grabbed the things I was going to buy and went for the sale items when my dad said I can't buy everything. I still wanted it, it was my money and besides, everything was just 4€ or 7€. Then I suddenly stood higher than the floor and there was water on the floor and I ws to jump over the water, Dave's friend said I should watch out, I leaped and woke up. 

WELCOME! And the first dream "A Prediction?"

Welcome to my dream blog. I have super vivid dreams, long dreams, scary dreams, so incredible hot and steamy sex dreams that I want to remember them later, and most often do, like they've happened for real. I can describe the colors, the scenery, feelings and touches, like they've happened yesterday, for dreams I had a year ago. So, to share these crazy things that goes on in my head while I'm asleep and to maybe myself have the chance to read them better, I thought I'd write them down.

I mostly dream about the same people, people in my daily life, so I'll give everyone made up names. And about the writing itself, evertyhing I type in normal writing is things I wonder about now when I'm awake or refer to and the Italic writing is the actual dream. Enjoy!

Friday, September 2, 2011

I'm at the moment fighting with my boyfriend, "A", so he wasn't at home yesterday when I got there and he had taken clothes with him giving me the hint that he's not coming home for the night. As usual, when I'm home alone I watch TV until I fall asleep... which happened yesterday. After falling sleep I dreamt that I was sleeping on the couch and woke and saw I had gotten a chat message from "A" to my iPhone just saying "out" at 7:09pm or 7:10pm. I continued sleeping and woke in the middle of the night to him coming home. He came and kissed me on the forehead even though he was still angry but we we're ok, talked and hugged and we're almost like we are normally at home. I woke up around 10:30pm, looked at my phone, but there was no message. I continued watching TV and fell asleep again, waking up to "A" coming home at about 11:50pm, still mad, barely said hi and no kiss.