Research - Dirty toilets

When reading about what dreaming about poop means, I found this page Bathroom Dreams. I've had dreams like that many times during the past few years. I think it's connected to my ex. My typical filthy bathroom dreams have been:

1. I really really need to go but all the bathrooms in a 10-100 stall bathrooms are super dirty from poop and pee, don't have a functioning doors, only half a door or no door at all. Many times the toilet bowls are flooded. Or there toilet is super dirty and there is no toilet paper. 

2. The toilet is in a public place and everyone would see me when I go. 

3. There is some weird toilet seat, eg. up in the air, but the hole is in the ground and there is just air underneath, for anyone to see me do my business.

Shit all over

Poop means money right?...

A couple of weeks ago I had this dream:
I was going to pick up a kitten. I went to the girls house, which was built in a hill, with only 3 walls and was filled with colorful things (bottles, pendants, cheap jewelry, jars, cups), kind of a hippie home. It was also between some high bridge and a lake. I saw the kittens on the floor and then the girl came in. She said I had to take my kittens brother too. So I then left with 2 kittens. At home they were playing and were totally cute, but then I noticed the brother kitten had pooped all over my bed and on the floor and there was small kitten poop all over my apartment. 

Last night (not a very sexy dream):
I was on the toilet and wiping my ass and wiping and wiping. Then my parents were there and I really wanted to be finished and not be seen by others. But there was just more and more to wipe. Never ending "shit ass" and I thought that I can't just pull my pants up because then I get shit in my panties, so I continued wiping and wiping... 

"I left you"

I read a chat/message or comment (like in Instagram) where T (from last lights dreams) was commenting on his ex's picture or text:
T: I left you
The ex: You left me?
The ex: No you didn't *laugh*
T: *smile*
The ex: *read heart*
T: *light blue small heart*
The ex: *red (or pink?) heart*
T. *Blue (or green?) heart*

Puppies, tattooed men and me a Mom

I was with my sister, her boyfriend and our grandparents at some house which I think was supposed to be our summerhouse. We were about to sleep when my grandma put the washing machine on and I got really angry at her because it made so much noise that I could not sleep. So I went downstairs, where I found "T" (this guy I know who's very tattooed). He was laying on a sofa and I asked if he was going to sleep on it or in the bedroom downstairs and he said "the bed downstairs". I told him I was going to sleep on the couch then, when he's off to bed. I wanted to sleep with him but waited for a move from him. Then I noticed there was a girl on the smaller couch, slouched. I looked at her, thought "well, at least it's not his ex" and I sat on the floor. I had a puppy so it was there with me. Then a few more people came in. The room was dark and I think the only light came from a TV. Then we all just sat there. 

I went for a smoke and my cigarette burned really fast because it was made of some weird paper with tinfoil on and I could barely get any. It was gone in seconds. When I got inside I saw T's ex on the floor with her boobs bare, hugging my puppy (I think she was breastfeeding it - YUK!). I took my puppy and started bitching at her for taking my dog and treating it like her baby. Then she started bitching to me about trying to steal T from her and that he left her for me and I just told her I had nothing to do with anything, we're just friends and that's it. And that he left her for his own reasons. 

Then I was trying to have a smoke again, and I noticed the cigarettes were not meant to be smoked as such, but to use for own made smokes. A friend of mine "H" was there and told me this. I had no cigarette paper but luckily found one normal cigarette in the pack so I took it and light it up. 

The next thing I remember is T thinking I was nice and his ex a bitch and he kissed me on the cheek while smiling at me. Even if the dream continued (below cont.) I could feel the touch of the kiss on my cheek when I woke.

I'm not sure if this is a part of the same dream or another one, but had it right after:

I sat at an airport, and saw my friend H walk towards me and she sat down on a bench next to mine. She seemed to be in a bad mood. I told her I'm sorry for not being in touch lately and told her about my ex and everything. She didn't seem to care. Then I looked behind me and saw my child, playing with others. I told H it was my kid (I think it was a boy 2-3 years old), and told her I was pregnant already when we had the dinner (the last time we've had dinner). Then I looked at my left hand ring finger, saw it was empty and thought to myself "I'm still not married". 

Sailing in circles

I was sailing in a small boat and I was with my sister, ex or a friend. We were going in circles because the wind was blowing and pushing us to go round and round in the rough waves. Then I saw friends pass by and shouting something at us. Then I thought that I have to turn the sails but wasn't sure how. Finally I got the boat to go forward. 

Heat at the office

Something at the office and "that co-worker" was hung over from a party from last night. Before that we also had a meeting and I said to him "I was going to sit next to you, but it would've been difficult to sit there 2h and not touch you" (which was something that actually had happened 2 weeks ago the evening before the night when I had this dream - I mean the meeting and me thinking about how hard it'd be to sit next to him so I didn't). Then he needed my help with something and asked "Oh, so what would've you done then?". Then I had to pee and though "what if he leaves while I'm gone" and then he wrote on the internal chat "Thought if I should book a meeting room".

Haunted House

Something with a horse and me and my sister staying in a friends house, which was a really old, spooky, dark, moist house. When entering the house there was a spider, which was actually a snail and then I saw a string of spiderweb and lifted the snail from it shell it actually was a turtle. The house was haunted, with ghosts living in the air conditioning ducts. The guesthouse was outside in the yard, which was a bit creepy. I had a cigarette.