Please listen to these...

Our office was loft like, with red brick walls, and a twilight kind of lighting. My desk was where it is normally.. I was looking at  "Gavin's" back and daydreaming. I then noticed when going to the toilet how he looked at me the whole way back to my seat. I was wondering what's up. A moment later he came to me, threw a bunch of CD's on my desk and said "Listen to these, there are some good songs". He had marked which songs I should listen to. In the pile there was albums by Metallica, Papa Roach, Green Day, Bullet for My Valentine and some more. I looked at them and started listening, they were all the same style (except the Metallica songs), the kinds you listen to when you're heartbroken or angry over some relationship issues. The first song contained a video of someone beating up someone, like 80's style, then a Metallica song started playing. I could hear "Gavin" listen to Bullets "A place where you belong". I went through the CD's and in one I found a piece of torn paper, with my name on and a list of the songs I should listen to, the numbers. There was number 4, 14 and the rest I can't remember. The cover was red, it was supposed to be a Green Day cover, but looked more like Papa Roach "Love Hate Tragedy" - album. I looked at "Gavin", who looked sad and disappointed. I hid under my desk and kissed the paper only to notice this guy from work looking at me. I tried to cover up kissing the paper and I put it away and continued with whatever I was doing.

Planecrash

We we're on a company business trip. Most of our office. It was in Sweden and when we're about to leave there was a problem with the plane. We took off normally, but suddenly when I looked out of the window I saw we were flying between buildings, really low. The plane made loops and all kinds of things and I was sure we were going to crash any minute. Then we made an emergency landing. The airline informed that we need to take off again, from a short lane, so there'll only be about 100m of runway and a jump at the end so we can reach 400 kmh. I thought we are going to die. The captain didn't look too experienced and I said I want to take the boat home. Everyone said I was not allowed, that I have to fly home. They also said the flight would last for approximately 4 hours. I thought what the hell, it should take an hour. I saw a piece of ground being moved to make another runway for another plane and then it was our turn. I took my co-worker inside the terminal, since it says on our timetable we had lunch at 15:30 and then one hour later was the take off. We went inside the terminal only to notice we'd have to go trough security and everything AGAIN, and there was no time for food since the lines were so long. Suddenly we were back in the plane, which was covered in red velvet from the inside. I sent "A" a text saying we're delayed and it'll take 4 hours!!! for the flight, he just said he'd wait for me at home. When the plane took off I could just think about "Gavin", that if we're going to crash I want to be next to him on the plane... (wtf!??!)

One messed up party

We were at a friend’s house, she was having a get together weekend, party sort of thing. It was just a few friends, my sister, “A” and me. Everyone else was drinking except me, I only had one drink, orange or pineapple juice and just a small amount of vodka. They had a huge house and we were all sleeping downstairs, my sister in the middle room, beneath the stairs. Me and “A” in a room to the left and my friends to the right. There was yet another room, that had its own bathroom. “A” started feeling sick so he went to the extra rooms bathroom but couldn't throw up and I suggested we'd change the room so he's be closer to a bathroom but he switched back and forth between the rooms.


Then when I thought everyone was settled and ready to go to sleep everyone got up and continued partying. Outside there was a smaller house where a lot of people had gathered. I had still had only one drink and I ran to the house and it felt like I was super drunk and I fell and rolled for a while on the ground, I couldn't stop and I got a lot of sand in my mouth. I tried to spit it out and rinse it out but it didn't want to come out of my mouth and I nearly choked. Everyone thought I had more than just one drink. “A” was checking out every single girl there, that he didn't know from before and there was some blond girl who was really thin, like a model and she had a top that showed her nipples through. He was checking her out and then she made a move and I got really pissed off, threw my iPhone on the ground so that it broke in half. The only thing keeping the phone together was a pink rubber cover. i took my phone and started beating that blonde and another girl who were all over "A".


I was really angry "A" so I told him, fine if you want someone else do whatever you want! I went to find his smokes since mine was out. I found his pack, empty. People had smoked them. I then found a basket full of smokes but a girl who went to the same high school as I did (a bitch!) took them from me, suddenly it was her party, not my friends anymore. I felt drunk as hell, even if I still had only had one drink. Everything was really confusing. Then I saw “A” walk away from the party with a girl who is a friend of his. He had cut his hair and I went and asked what's going on and the girl said I have to leave him alone. He looked really sad. I had no idea of what was going on. Then I saw my sister and my friend and I got some cigarettes from them. We sat down and talked for a while. Then I saw “A” coming back, and his hair was like it is now. I thought everything was really weird.


The next I remember was that I had blood on my hands and I saw “A” get dragged away by some bad man. He dragged “A” to the other, smaller house and the bad man held a lot of the guests hostage. He threatened to cut “A”s penis and balls off. “A” was already bleeding from other injuries. I was crying because I thought the man was going to kill “A”. “A” said everything will be fine, that we'll be fine even if the man would hurt him, as long as he would get to be alive and together with me. All I could think was that I don't want him to get killed but if that bad man hurts him we can never have sex again, but I'd still get to be with him, but still no sex. The bad man gave me 5 minutes to get things fixed or he'd hurt “A”. I was crying hysterical, was nervous and tried to find my phone. I found it only to realize it was broke, now already in 3 pieces. I tried to wake up people by bursting in to their rooms and asking for a phone. I don't remember what I needed to do for the bad man.. I never found another phone so I tried to put my broken phone together and I tried to call the cops. Every time I got my phone together and was able to get through to the cops my display went black and I could not use the navigator to see where we were. I got to tell the woman cop we were in Nebraska (WTF!??!) and then closer and closer to where we actually were. The cops were getting closer and I finally could tell them where we were. And they found us. I had got cuts from the glass of my phone (when my phone broke it was the iPhone 3g but when I found it, in 3 pieces it was the new iPhone 4). I was so happy I got “A” back, in one piece even if he had cuts and was bloody. We went to a room and were about to have sex, when that girl who had tried and hit on him, had suddenly turned brunet and she was naked and came in the room. I told her to go away that he doesn't want her that can't she just leave us alone. She pushed herself on him so I was "fine, 3 some then, but I decide!". She was the most flat chested girl I had ever seen and “A” started licking her right nipple and I her left, but it felt like licking a guy who has no chest hair. Then we went on the bed and I was on top of “A” and that other girl was trying to come between us but I pushed her on the floor... the end.

Going back one year...

October-November 2010 I saw many dreams about vampires, and "A" being unfaithful (well at that time we were in an open relationship, so basically not cheating but still fu*king someone else). Here are 4 dreams I still remember.

I was having a smoke on my balcony when there was a vampire flying outside it. She asked if I could pass her some light. So I invited her to my balcony. She lit a smoke and I wondered how come vampires smoke, and how come she's flying during daylight and how come she's not killing me. Then she said she's like any normal human, except the flying and being a vampire. Then she told me about good and bad vampires. Before I knew it we started to see black shadows coming our way and she said I was to go inside. The bad vampires had come to get me. She then stayed outside and fought with them.

I was running around on our parking lot, between cars, downstairs in the parking hall, trying to hide. I was supposed to collect every one of the colored girly things that were spread around the neighborhood. If I remember correctly I had only one more to get, and I think it was purple. The whole thing was about me being free when I find them all, then the vampires can't hurt me anymore.

I was on a field, with a trailer on it. "A" (not my bf at the time, this is when we were on a break from being in the open relationship), had sex with "Gertrude" on the couch. I went in, pulled her off "A" and called her a bitch and kissed "A" in front of her, so she left. "A" was all over me. Then later the same thing happened. "A" was having (well almost) sex with this other girl and I got rid of her again, but I made sure she had to watch how hot "A" was for me and how much he liked when I gave him head, something she could never do as good as me... Then I got him to myself.

"A" and I were not together, at all at the time. Not in the dream, not in real life.
I was in what seemed like a monastery up in the hills in Tibet (or China somewhere). High on the mountains, with a perfect view. The house was like a typical red-painted Chinese monetary like building. I was in a room with red flying thing curtains, that we're flying because the balcony door was open. I was laying on the floor on big satin pillows. There was this old Chinese lady who was my guardian. I was the Queen Vampire and going hot. I had on my just a satin robe that was slightly open and i was touching myself, near to come all the time. The more aroused I got the more crazy other vampires became, who tried to get in my room, but the old woman said I was not to let anyone else near my, nor touch me and I could not let myself come, that we have to wait for "A". The vampires were also becoming more aroused the more aroused I became and the whole dream was just filled with sexual tension.

Want some dick?

I was at the shopping center close to my house, it's not like a big house with stores, but like an old one, with a open market place, a couple of small stores and several pubs. Anyhow, I was assisting our assistant decorating a Christmas tree, which was on a table, only about 1 meter high and it had a foot, a couple of branches and on branch that was vertical in the shape of a circle. I remember laughing a bit and thinking it was the weirdest Christmas tree I had ever seen. I was hanging really cute ornaments, in the shape of words like "love" and bow ties and hearts, all made of silver. Then I went to help the boys in a pile of snow and talking with this one guy, "Gavin" and then we were laughing and then he said "Do you want dick?" and smiled. I wasn't sure if he was serious or what, but he was, thought if I wanted to have sex with him since "A" wasn't giving it... I was really confused and just thought to myself that "But I had amazing sex last night with "A" and we're still together", and never said anything out loud, I just smiled.

Vampires

When me and "A" were having an open relationship last year I saw a lot of dreams about vampires for a while and then he announced he'd met someone he want's to be with so we can't see each other anymore. That all ended and he wanted to get back together for real, no more open relationship and so on. I have not seen a dream about vampires since then, until now. Maybe it has something to do with me watching Vampire Diaries, but I think it has mostly to do with the fact that I feel exactly like I felt last year, also November, that he's not true to me. Now he will be away for 3 days and my biggest fear is that when he gets back it'll all be over, since he's going to be away from me a few days. That's why the vampire dreams.

I was going up the stairs to our local night club, where I was to meet a friend. None of the lights were on, just small blurry table lights. Everything was smokey and black. I then noticed it was a party for vampires. I was scared and then my friend came. We talked and then I realized I was a vampire too. I don't know if she was. Then something happened and I got really scared. Someone was after me and vampires tried to attack me. So I ran, to a car... had something to do with "A". Then I met a guy who's attended my sisters class in middle school, we hid in the dark, sat on this bench and lighted a smoke. Then I noticed a police car driving really fast, with the sirens on, to the nightclub and I realized I had dropped my drivers license on the bar floor and knew the cops would be after me, so I had to go home and lock the doors, and at the same time I was thinking something about destroying evidence and leaving my place... Then I woke preeeeetty scared.