Lately

I've seen a lot of dreams for the past week, but I can only remember them the minute I wake up and then.. it's gone. What I can remember is:

I had a dream about this guy I met during the Easter holidays. Nothing sexual.. just a dream where he was with.

Me and my sister were trying to figure out how to get a red clown nose to fit my kitten and to keep it from falling of. We had these burly rainbow colored clown wigs and the red clown noses.

Last night I was going in to surgery. I was at the hospital, late from the surgery and could not find the room. I always went to the same direction and found the wrong rooms.. one of the numbers was 61. My doctor was getting ready. Then he explained to me what he will do during the surgery to my throat. It was supposed to be on the outside (one I've had before) and I was thinking about the pain I will have after. Even though it wouldn't actually hurt when I swallow, the surgery was going to somehow hurt my throat from the inside and I was going to have some tiny tube in my throat when I wake, which I would feel when I swallow. When I did find the room, I waited for the doctor, but he was late.

Not sure...

Last night I had a dream about Gavin, or a dream about dreaming about Gavin... (?)

So close... again

I was at work thinking about Gavin and sex and asking myself when there would be the chance to have sex? I was somehow communicating with him (messaging, chatting, looking at each other?). Gavin was married or engaged, every now and then he had a gold ring on his ringfinger. Then me and, Gavin and this other guy went to lunch. We had agreed on having sex during the lunch break so no now would wonder how we're away at the same time. We could not just skip so we had to ask that older guy for some advice. Gavin asked the guy "If we were about to have sex now, do you think it's a good idea? You've been there so you know.". The older guy said it's up to us and he won't tell anyone though. So we skipped. We were just walking and talking, mostly this and that and where we should do it. Then we were by the sea, in the woods. I had to go to the toilet and found this one pretty ok one. Gavin asked if we should go to the ones with the blue doors to have sex, but I went in to another toilet since I didn't really want to do it in a public toilet and hoped he didn't find me. Then when I saw Gavin, he was my old friend "Thomas" (who I haven't seen in 2-3 years). He kissed me and it was like we were supposed to have sex. I didn't want to. The next thing I remember is that we were in some apartment and I just woke up. I had sleepy hair and luckily all my clothes still on. I looked around, saw Thomas in another room and though "Oh no I need to get back to work, I've been gone 4h, what's Gavin gonna think?". Then I got up, talked to Thomas, or just told him I have to go and pretty much ditched him. When I got to work I looked like I'd been sleeping or having sex. I was look at Gavin and he didn't really notice me, except that he looked like he was thinking I'd slept with someone else during the time I was away. Then Gavin and I started messaging on WhatsApp and talking about doing it, how I felt about all this "almost doing it" and that I can't taking it anymore, and about what we'd do to each other. Then he said we'd do it today or tomorrow (?) and this time for real and no postponing no matter what. 

Play, while having company

Last night I finally (again) had a more interesting dream, or actually, one that I could remember more than 2 seconds after wakening.

I was at the stables, which was somehow connected to some work thing or meeting. I was walking around with my co-worker (a woman) and talking this and that. Then we got to this room (that looked like this one room at the horse stables where I hang out) and I was looking for the cat. I saw the cat door and thought that it will come "home" when it's hungry. There was (in addition to what the room normally has) a big table and a couple of benches. The next thing I know is that I sat next to Gavin, with lots of co-workers surrounding us. We were having a lunch meeting. I touched him on his leg, close to his crotch and he said "Hey hey, so you're touching me now. Not here and not now!". I got a bit mad at him and was like "Fine!". My co-worker (the woman) was looking at us and then this other guy noticed there was something. Later, I sat in the same spot but we were just hanging out. Then Gavin kissed me. He grabbed my cheeks and KISSED ME! I was confused and not ready to kiss him back, so I looked like a blow fish. I asked how he could do that, in front of everyone, but I'm not allowed to touch him!? He said it was different and a kiss is nothing. I was scared that we'd get fired because he did it like that, out in the open. My co-worker (the woman) was still there hanging out with us, but everyone else had left. Gavin got a hard on and since he had a huge penis (in this dream) I could see it through his pants. I was telling him to hide it, since someone "else" could also see. He didn't. I was playing with his penis for a while, touching it, rubbing it, getting extremely horny and biting him. Then I was on the bed, without any pants on, getting touched by Gavin. I apologized for a barely there stubble, since I had not planned on having sex and I had no time in the morning to shave. Had I known there was a chance I would've shaved. We still had company so I was a bit preserved. And then I was dressed, sitting next to that co-worker (the woman) and Gavin was still naked, standing on his kneeson the bed, with a hard on, showing off his huge penis. Then there was something with us (Gavin and me) as lovers, kissing, in love like, but still not together, but alone, that same evening.