Interrupted by fire

"A" and I broke up on Monday, after 4 years and I feel lost. Even though I knew it has to be done, I don't know if I can live without him. All the thoughts in my head are a mess. I've dreamt of us since then, but nothing I can remember that well, only the that I dreamt about him. But I just had a dream about something else.

It was dark, like outside in the night. I was with someone (the only thing I remember is that he had dark brown hair, that was a bit over grown and started to curl up). There were many people around. I was really horny and the guy I was with and I lay down. He started lowering my shirt to touch my left breast. Others could see but I didn't care. My hard swollen round breast and hard nipple was out and the guy gently touched it and kissed it, and started to softly lick my nipple. It felt so good. Then some man said something and close by was a fire, I could see the darkness, the flames and the guys hair I was with and my breast and it just felt so good. The fire was taking over and we had to stop, then I woke. 

Previous dreams

I haven't had the time to write about my dreams lately. But I have two I can remember from December.

My sister borrowed my parents camera and when se returned it, she had forgot to delete the pictures, so looking though them with my mom we found pictures of her on some boat. Suddenly there was pictures of 3 guys she was with and they were standing naked, then there was a few close up pictures of their penises. We started laughing with my mom and were wondering why she'd have pictures like these. Then in hurry we realised we have to delete them quickly, before my dad sees them.

The other dream was of me being in a shopping mall. I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes opened. Then people started shooting and all the lights went out. I ran to the stairs and found myself somewhere high, sort of a rooftop or storage level. I tired to get away but the gunmen were everywhere. I could barely keep my eyes open. I found something to hide behind, then got a gun and shot one of the guys. I was trying to get to the stairs but my legs were so tired I could barely stand up and realised someone might be there so I just hid under a pile of cardboard. I was falling asleep. Suddenly some gangster ripped the cardboards that lay on top of me and said "Do you think you can hide from us?". He took me with him. I woke up in some small house, among other girls. It was a place behind this shopping mall, with pools, park benches some trees and a few small houses (well house is the wrong word, bigger than a changing booth but barely fit 5 people to lay on the floor. Some black guy came and said I had to do everything he want's or they'll kill me. So to stay alive I went along with being their "bitch". They gave me a swimsuit and I was supposed to hang out with the other girls in the pools. Then at one point I had my phone. I started texting my boyfriend (we were still together then) and then I got caught. The guy cam in the house and asked what I was doing and wanted to see. I said nothing, that I'm only catching up with my friends. We were allowed to text with friends, so that no one would think we're missing, but not our boyfriends or tell anyone where we are. He gave me clothes to wear and said I was supposed to go to the pool until he tells me (until he wants sex). I was changing out there in the open, slipped my clothes off and stood there half naked, but thought, "whatever". Then I got to my phone again and managed to text "A" "malls name, kidnapped, help". Then the gangsters start putting up things for a concert, while rap music was playing really loud. Suddenly they just started shooting at us with machine guns. I ran, found this alley that lead away, I saw "A" in his car, jumped in and asked him to drive away fast. His car was this really crappy one. I had to hold on to the door so that it would stay shut and the wheels were so worn out that they just slide on the road (even though it was summer). The gangsters were behind us. We got to this intersection and stopped in the lights and then drove away.