I've had some dreams, one about my apartment being renovated even though it's a 6 months old building. And my dad dying in an accident and my mom and me talking that "It'd been better if he'd been alone in the car". I think he had a heart attack or something.
And then... Gavin is back. It's been 4,5 years since he kissed me. 3,5 years since we almost had sex, and 3 years since we had sex. He's still haunting me. I haven't even had dreams about my ex, as often as I do of Gavin. Usually if it's about the ex, he's done something wrong with our kid to piss me off and not trust him. But about Gavin the dreams seem to reflect on me being afraid he will (or already have) forget me. Within one week: I was going to meet Gavin, and I saw him walking towards me, when suddenly his fiancé showed up, next to him. Dressed super nice in a skirt and lace top. She smiled and said my name, like we were friends. I was disappointed since I thought I would get to be alone with Gavin. I started walking away from them. A couple of nights ago I got angry at Gavin. I was standing next to him, talking to him, but he didn't seem to notice me, at all. I was screaming for his attention, but still, nothing. I kicked him in the ass, and he saw me, but looked right through me, like I was air....
