One nightmare after another

Because of the thing A did on Fri-Sat night, I can’t trust him. He couldn't sleep so he was in the living room. I fell asleep normally, but had a terrible nightmare. 

First we fought and I was screaming at him and I wanted to throw him out. He didn't even care. He never even tried to stop me, which made me even madder. Then I wished it was all just a bad dream. I then woke up, to an even worse version of that dream. A had bought drugs and he had them in my bathroom. My cats were there in danger of eating weed so I was really pissed off at A. Then we had a huge fight, a drug dealer friend of his was there, A was acting like a total douche. I was screaming so loud I could and crying, but there were no tears. I thought I had cried them all out. A was acting really immature and just kept hurting me with being like his douche bag friend. Not anything like he is normally. I was thinking about the big chef’s knife in the kitchen, how much I’d want to use it. I wished it was all a dream. I then woke up to an even worse version. I was screaming at him, crying (without tears) and about to throw him out. He didn't care, which hurt me even more. He even said he was going to find someone else so he doesn't care if I kick him out. I just got madder. I had the knife in my hand and stabbed A in the back. Nothing even happened; he just kept insulting me more while I was hanging in his back with the knife stuck. 

I then woke up, super relieved that it was ALL just a dream. 

Stressful driving

Last Friday I had a dream that I was supposed to go sign in for school, late in the evening, during the Christmas holidays. I was really tired and driving in my home town. Then suddenly I was on an old co-workers  blue, thin, bicycle. I could barely ride it since there was snow. I went over a bridge and thought that I’d wake up with doing some biking in the cold. Then I deiced to turn back. I had a rabbit holding on to the steering wheel. Then it jumped on the ground, and it could not grab it’s leach. There was a Bus driving by and the rabbit jumped and got kind of sucked in, or squashed between the Bus doors. I felt horrible about the rabbit. Then I got back to my car and started driving home. I was so tired I almost fell asleep at the wheel and I could barely see out the window and there were so many people out shopping and just walking over the road, who I had to doge, and almost hit. When I woke I found my BF had done something he promised he’d never do…

"See how horny you make me"

Last night I had such a weird dream again... I wonder if all people see this sort of dreams or if it's just me. At least my nights are never boring. Can't but laugh at this sort:

I had been doing some sports at my friends (Tony) family sporting center. I was about to hit the shower at the parents house (which was actually like my apartment look like), and the parents were both there in the bathroom. I was waiting for them to leave, but they just stood there. I started to get undressed and they still just stood there. I asked if I could get the soap and shampoo, and Tony's mom gave them to me. His dad still stood by the door. I stood there butt naked still waiting form them to leave. They had just had sex and Tony's dad was now naked. He wanted to shower with me. I said "no" and started showering. Tony's mom now left, but the dad staid. He forced himself in the shower with me. I tried to wash my hair and took a step aside but Tony's dad just got closer and closer. By this point he had a boner. He showed it to me and said "See how horny you make me". I was only thinking "Doesn't he know that I've had a relationship with his son, for several years, and just had sex with one guy who's almost like a son to him, just a couple of weeks ago). I also though about my boyfriend (A is back in the picture) and started thinking, "wait.. how could I have had sex with that guy if I'm with this guy... ooh yeah it was still back when we were not together". One funny thing about the dream is however that Tony's dad was longer, blonder and about 15 years younger than he really is, and his penis looked almost as A´s.

So many weird dreams again

It's been a while since I wrote down my dreams the last time. Mostly because I've had lots and lots of dreams, but I forget them shortly after I've woken up. Lately however, I've been having dreams about my cats, or Gavin. We don't work together anymore and I kind of miss him. Especially now, this time of the year and that feeling around the company Christmas party, the looks he gives me and that "let's go somewhere else". Not that things aren't good at home, but it's just that tiny tingle that I miss, or the excitement, that burning look. I can't really remember anything else from my dreams, than:

I was in the workplace cafeteria and Gavin was there, trying to talk to me, being close, and I always dodged him when he got close, so that I would not touch him. I was disappointed at him, for not trying to stop the management of laying me off. I did not want him to touch me. I did not want him to get the satisfaction, even though I was dying to touch him. When he was able to touch me a bit when passing by, I felt it through my whole body. Then, at one point he was talking to me and kissed me on the cheek, but I went away and he was there looking like "don't go". 


I was with my sister at this sport center body boarding indoors and it was super fun. 

I was still working at my last job. They made me work there even though they had laid me off. I was supposed to be enjoying paid free time, but they made me work. I was shouting at the manager, and he was like Satan himself. I was mad at Gavin too, for not defending me, for being such a wuss. 










My kitten woke me up in the middle of the night by sniffing my face.