3 weeks since giving birth to our girl

During the past 3 weeks, since our daughter was born, I have barely seen, nor do I remember any, dreams. I have barely slept, which explains the lack of or why I can't remember my dreams. There are only 2 that I remeber parts of:

A was supposed to watch over C, but he had gone to a party, with her. When I got there he sas wasted on drugs. He was laying on a high ta le almost passed out from acid, with out baby beside him, vlose to fall off the table. Some girl tried to hit on him. We had a huge fight, I called him a drug addict etc. 

My sister was beside me and she had poop on her pöfingers and was touching me with her dirty hands and I was all "don't touch me", and at the same time I needed to take a shit.