One nightmare after another

Because of the thing A did on Fri-Sat night, I can’t trust him. He couldn't sleep so he was in the living room. I fell asleep normally, but had a terrible nightmare. 

First we fought and I was screaming at him and I wanted to throw him out. He didn't even care. He never even tried to stop me, which made me even madder. Then I wished it was all just a bad dream. I then woke up, to an even worse version of that dream. A had bought drugs and he had them in my bathroom. My cats were there in danger of eating weed so I was really pissed off at A. Then we had a huge fight, a drug dealer friend of his was there, A was acting like a total douche. I was screaming so loud I could and crying, but there were no tears. I thought I had cried them all out. A was acting really immature and just kept hurting me with being like his douche bag friend. Not anything like he is normally. I was thinking about the big chef’s knife in the kitchen, how much I’d want to use it. I wished it was all a dream. I then woke up to an even worse version. I was screaming at him, crying (without tears) and about to throw him out. He didn't care, which hurt me even more. He even said he was going to find someone else so he doesn't care if I kick him out. I just got madder. I had the knife in my hand and stabbed A in the back. Nothing even happened; he just kept insulting me more while I was hanging in his back with the knife stuck. 

I then woke up, super relieved that it was ALL just a dream. 

Stressful driving

Last Friday I had a dream that I was supposed to go sign in for school, late in the evening, during the Christmas holidays. I was really tired and driving in my home town. Then suddenly I was on an old co-workers  blue, thin, bicycle. I could barely ride it since there was snow. I went over a bridge and thought that I’d wake up with doing some biking in the cold. Then I deiced to turn back. I had a rabbit holding on to the steering wheel. Then it jumped on the ground, and it could not grab it’s leach. There was a Bus driving by and the rabbit jumped and got kind of sucked in, or squashed between the Bus doors. I felt horrible about the rabbit. Then I got back to my car and started driving home. I was so tired I almost fell asleep at the wheel and I could barely see out the window and there were so many people out shopping and just walking over the road, who I had to doge, and almost hit. When I woke I found my BF had done something he promised he’d never do…

"See how horny you make me"

Last night I had such a weird dream again... I wonder if all people see this sort of dreams or if it's just me. At least my nights are never boring. Can't but laugh at this sort:

I had been doing some sports at my friends (Tony) family sporting center. I was about to hit the shower at the parents house (which was actually like my apartment look like), and the parents were both there in the bathroom. I was waiting for them to leave, but they just stood there. I started to get undressed and they still just stood there. I asked if I could get the soap and shampoo, and Tony's mom gave them to me. His dad still stood by the door. I stood there butt naked still waiting form them to leave. They had just had sex and Tony's dad was now naked. He wanted to shower with me. I said "no" and started showering. Tony's mom now left, but the dad staid. He forced himself in the shower with me. I tried to wash my hair and took a step aside but Tony's dad just got closer and closer. By this point he had a boner. He showed it to me and said "See how horny you make me". I was only thinking "Doesn't he know that I've had a relationship with his son, for several years, and just had sex with one guy who's almost like a son to him, just a couple of weeks ago). I also though about my boyfriend (A is back in the picture) and started thinking, "wait.. how could I have had sex with that guy if I'm with this guy... ooh yeah it was still back when we were not together". One funny thing about the dream is however that Tony's dad was longer, blonder and about 15 years younger than he really is, and his penis looked almost as A´s.

So many weird dreams again

It's been a while since I wrote down my dreams the last time. Mostly because I've had lots and lots of dreams, but I forget them shortly after I've woken up. Lately however, I've been having dreams about my cats, or Gavin. We don't work together anymore and I kind of miss him. Especially now, this time of the year and that feeling around the company Christmas party, the looks he gives me and that "let's go somewhere else". Not that things aren't good at home, but it's just that tiny tingle that I miss, or the excitement, that burning look. I can't really remember anything else from my dreams, than:

I was in the workplace cafeteria and Gavin was there, trying to talk to me, being close, and I always dodged him when he got close, so that I would not touch him. I was disappointed at him, for not trying to stop the management of laying me off. I did not want him to touch me. I did not want him to get the satisfaction, even though I was dying to touch him. When he was able to touch me a bit when passing by, I felt it through my whole body. Then, at one point he was talking to me and kissed me on the cheek, but I went away and he was there looking like "don't go". 


I was with my sister at this sport center body boarding indoors and it was super fun. 

I was still working at my last job. They made me work there even though they had laid me off. I was supposed to be enjoying paid free time, but they made me work. I was shouting at the manager, and he was like Satan himself. I was mad at Gavin too, for not defending me, for being such a wuss. 










My kitten woke me up in the middle of the night by sniffing my face. 

Dreams from the past weeks.

I was at home, and my dad and mom came over. My older cat, P, run out and I had to catch her. Then she run out again, and I had to catch her again. 

I was babysitting this little boy and his sister. At one point I put them on the sofa to watch TV. I went to the toilet (or something) and when I got back they were sitting in a hugging position on the sofa, with their sort of souls outside of their bodies. Their eyes were shut, like they were sleeping or dead. I was wondering about it to someone who said things like that might happen. 

I saw Gavin at this cafe. I was with my current co-workers, but went to talk to him. He had these rings, which was meant for him and his girl, for their engagement. He was showing them to me and telling me how the 3 rings were going to be melted in to 2. Then I was looking at one that had fake diamonds. I asked about them and he said they will be used in the new one. I asked about them being fake and he said it doesn't matter that they are fake. 

I woke and tried to turn on the lights, but nothing worked. There were again these bad shadows in my apartment doing me harm. I shouted at them to leave me alone and stop messing with me and my cat. I picked her up in my arms to protect her. 

Something about sex with A. 

A was sleeping over and he woke to the cats making noise and was really mad at me for it. 

Gavin had put his blue sailing jacket up for sale via Facebooks Buy/Sell group. I called him and said I could take it unless someone else will buy it. He said he had though about calling me and asking if I wanted it. It was fairly new but it said it was "soaked". I think it had been lying in the rain over a night or a whole day. I then had the jacket at the end of the dream, and it was light blue turquoise, and wet. 

A was in my bathroom with some chick he met through Tinder, discussing her bush, and wanted to trim her before having sex. She was sitting on my toilet and saying how she like it the way it was. I wasn't in the dream, I saw it as if I was watching a tv-show.

Dreams from a couple of weeks back

I was in a bar, with a pool. Some guy came up to me and asked "What's up (me)?". I didn't recognize him so I just walked away. He started following me and then started jerking off so that when he came it flew all over me. I called the cops, and they did not believe me at all. Instead they made me take a drug test and I tried to convince them of what had happened was very real and that there are people who saw this. 

This one skier friend of my sisters and I were send IM's to each other, while laying on these mattresses just infront of each other. Then he took a picture of me and made it in to a fat face picture and sent it to me and said "now you see how much you and your sister look a like?". 

I was with my ex, A in a hotel room, getting ready to have sex, but then he left with some people to watch soccer. Some people staid in our room. Somehow there was a mess and no one helped me clean it and I was really frustrated. 

Something about D.

My ex, A, gave me some really cheap plastic engagement ring, that later turned out to be some huge glass fake diamond ring. 

There were wolves in the forest. I was with my cat and she sometimes run towards them, and I had to protect her/ catch her. 2 tried to attack, but then a rabbit came and then a boar and they went after it instead. I grabbed by cat and run towards the car. 

2 dreams about sex with my ex, A and his penis

I was making the bed for some old lady, and I put the sheet really tight. She then said "Oh this was very comfortable to lay on, and not like it was before".

I gave a BJ to some rockstar. I hade some candy in my mouth that made my tongue black and he really loved the black mouth/tongue.

Flesh eating bacteria kind of disease

Last night I had a couple of dreams about this guy I met a few weeks ago (let's call him Kevin). We were out partying, him, his friend and me. We all ended up at his place even though I got the feeling they are going home and I have to just get in my car and leave. His apartment was really cool (though nothing like his apartment is for real). It had big glass windows and a cool view. When we got to his place I was looking at his white socks and though "are those the same as yesterday" because there were these light brown smudge stains on them. Then he took off his socks and showed his feet. There were tissue showing and holes between his bones and ligaments and he told me he had this disease where the skin and tissues are  degenerating. I was thinking that, that's the reason why he's still single... and how he'll look when it spreads to his face.

It was the same dream continuing or another but it was again about Kevin. I remember bits and pieces: I had to shower again, even though showering like 1 hour ago. I was driving with my sister, mom and dad and I was trying to look for his house, when my sister and amount said "there he is", but I didn't see him on the street because I was just looking for his house and car. There was this really steep downhill road that we drove. I saw one windy narrow road going uphill and said "that's where we went with ? that one time". Then I had to pee really badly. My dad wanted us to go to this harbor and there's a toilet everyone knows who goes there, but it was locked since it wasn't season. Then my dad wanted me to take a picture of him and the toilet door, but I had to pee so my sister then was to take it. I then tried because my sister is terrible at photographing, but my dad was blocking the whole bathroom so all I got was him, his shoulder or a terrible blurry picture.