Someone's switched my brain with porrige

Lately I've been seeing alot of dreams, but I hardly rememeber anything one minute after waking up. The dreams have been long, most of them nightmare:ish and most of the time I have woken up sleeping on my back (which i never do normally). I know I have, for over a week now seen messed up dreams and I'm confused, sad, scared of my bf leaving me or feeling down when I wake. unfortunately I can't remember anything else than parts from last night, but I'll try to write down wahtever I can remember from the next night forward.

The night before last:
I had a really weird dream. Woke. Fell asleep and dreamt that I told my sister all about the dream I had before.







Last night:
First I had a dream where I was with my parents and aunt and her husband on the way to the Alps for a ski trip. Suddenly I was alone in my aunts husbands car. Driving it with summer tires on a partially snowy and icy road. Then the road became slippery, I couldn't see much. the front window was really narrow and I was staring the car with a joystick, a play station remote and hardly reaching the pedals in the front since I was sitting in the back seat. I could barely control the car. Luckily I made it to a rest stop and I told everyone I'm not driving anymore, that I'd stay where I was. Then I was with a friend and my dad, we went inside some cottage type restaurant. Then my dad said it's ok if I want to smoke since he can see I'm stressed so I bought a pack of cigarettes (I think I said the brand loud in my sleep). Then my dad started planning that we'd stay there because we could drive to 4 different ski resorts (one near our home - even though we were in a different country!!). Then me and my dad went out, were supposed to move the car and he was driving. In a downhill he lost the staring of the car and we were spinning 100 kmh down the icy road, cars and snow coming towards us. I thought I'd die, but we made it. Then we were back in the cottage, suddenly with a bunch of my friends and acquaintances. A friend of mine was dating my ex, but he still kept suggesting things to me, one friend said my boobs were huge and might it be because of "A". Then when I lay on the couch with "A" someone said something and then suddenly a chef from "A"'s work shouted some nasty thing from the kitchen. Then I woke.

The second dream was about "A" breaking up with me. It was a normal day, I think he was picking me up at work. In the car he was all quiet and then suddenly he said "This is now over". I was like "What? What's over? Us?" and he said "I can't deal with your negativity" and I said "WHAT!?!? I've been everything BUT negative lately!" and he said "Yeah well your still negative all the time". Then everything is black until I saw myself sending him a bunch of messages telling him how we've been and I've been the past weeks and that everything has been perfect and asking him what the hell? And all I got was "I can't say". Then I woke up.

Billionare/Trillionare

I had won the lottery. So typical freaking out when you realize you have the right line, but then on top of that when I looked at my gambling account and it said I had 86 or 68 (can't remember which) billion or trillion (LOTS of zeroes). A weird thing about the line was was that there was two number 4, one 9. The rest I can't remember but what makes the line weird is that there can't be the same number twice, but I had it and the winning line had it, and the money had already popped up on my account.

Crazy week

I haven't had time to write down my dreams from the past week, but here is what I can remember:

Tuesday:
Some knocked 4 times on my door, when I heard it I woke and it was 4:44am.
I'm not sure if the knocking was a dream or not but I think it was, since my bf usually knocks and doesn't ring the bell and we weren't sleeping together that night.


Wednesday:
I was a man, sometimes seeing the dream from my eyes, sometimes from a bystander (like whey you're watching a movie). I was dropping off my kids at some friends house, his mom and he was supposed to look after them. When there they drugged me and took the kids somewhere I couldn't see them. After a while of trying to fight it I passed out and when I woke i could hear that guy and his mom arguing. Everything was blurry but I could see the door was open so I ran out, hitting the walls almost falling all the time since I was still drugd. The guy who was supposed to be my friend noticed it and started running after me. I ran through the yard, which had this small play house on it, then suddenly I was in the woods and it was really dark, I could barely see anything. I ran as fast as I could hitting my head and face in some trees on the way. I could hear how that guy and his mom were following me. I was beat, woozy, cold, scared and hurt from hitting so many trees on the way. I found an old warehouse and hid there. I remember how I was telling my dream me (the guy who I was in my dream) that it was stupid to hide in the house, they will find me there, I should've just kept running. Then I could hear the door open and that other guy saw me and laughed and said something suggesting I'm dead. Suddenly I saw this crowbar or hook or something beside a very high cabinet and I grabbed it and on top there was my brother (my dream brother, since I don't have one) saving me. He pulled me up so the bad guy couldn't catch me, but suddenly he took this saw, electronic thin blade and started threatening me with it so I fell on the ground, tried to grab a rope but I slipped and down on the floor I could see the bad guy standing on top of me about to hit me with.. something (axe, club.. I can't remember). Then I woke up.


Thursday:  That someone was again knocking on my door. This time I got up and looked through the door eye but the lights were off in the hallway so I couldn't see who it was. The knocking continued and I went to look again. This time I could see someone was looking in from the outside through the door eye. Suddenly I had the neighbors 2 girls over and then someone knocked and the girls run to the door and I told them not to open but they wanted to go home and opened and there was this long thin blond guy trying to get in. The girls got out even if the security chain was on, and I tried to keep the man out. When I got the door closed the man stood in my living room. He said he was so thin he could fit through the hole. I asked scared and angry, shouting, why he's doing this to me and what have I done and why does he want to hurt me. He said "Right, you ... -girls always think like that" and I said I was calling the cops and then I can't remember more...



Thursday:
I was going to this shopping mall to buy a sexy nightgown that was on sale. When I got to the store it a was wine-red babydoll (not sexy at all but in my dream it was super sexy). Then a friend of mine suggested, pushed me against the wall, and wanted me to buy a pair of underwear instead. They were something a granny would put on. Like 80DD wine-red lace, see through nude tone parts.. NOT SEXY on me. I never bought anything. There is a gap between the nightgown part, something about food, might have been burgers, and then suddenly I was in a toilet and from my purse there fell a pregnancy test. I thought, "but I just took one and it was negative". So I heard a voice say "you can't trust the first so you're supposed to take a second test a few days later". So I though, fine.. I wasn't pregnant two days ago so how could I be now. The toilet was SO nasty I couldn't sit on it. I covered the seat with paper but I still couldn't sit down since there was pee water almost to the top so I saw a jar on the floor and peed standing up, on the pregnancy test. When I was finished both lines turned red and I was horrified. Then the "pregnant" line disappeared and I was so relieved. But 2 minutes later the first line appeared again and a check box where it said pregnant turned red. So it meant I was pregnant. I was terrified and was only thinking about how I would tell "A" and should I get an abortion or not what if it was my only chance to get a child but then again my whole life could be ruined because I couldn't afford a child at this point... then I woke. 

Let me sleep...

I've had these same kinds of dreams, half night terrors before, but this time the dream was deeper and I wasn't alone. I lay in my bed, felt someone move over me. I kicked it off but it crawled back on top of me. I tried to hide under my blanket but it pulled it away and touched my leg. Then it moved over my boyfriend, I could see how it did the same to him. I felt I had to pee, and got up, I told myself "This is just a dream, just a dream". I tried to put on the lights to wake me up, but nothing happened. I saw something move and I got scared so I crawled back beside "A". The spirit/ghost whatever it was crawled on top of me again, this time I could see it clearly, I was almost awake and I saw it move on "A" and it touched his feet. "A" said "Tell it to leave me alone". I started, or tried to yell "Leave us alone! Go away!" but no one could hear me. I tried to fight them and even took my cellphone and tried to snap photos but it didn't take any pictures. Then I remembered I should pinch myself to make we wake, since I was in a half state, sort of awake but still dreaming. I pinched myself but nothing happened, until everything went blank and I woke, feeling scared, so scared I was too afraid to get up and go pee. These dreams have usually lasted for just a couple of minutes, and usually when I've been sleeping alone, since "A"'s body is not attached to me, but I was like a weener between a bun inside my blanket so he's body could not touch mine. Stupid stupid ghosts... stole my sleep.

Please listen to these...

Our office was loft like, with red brick walls, and a twilight kind of lighting. My desk was where it is normally.. I was looking at  "Gavin's" back and daydreaming. I then noticed when going to the toilet how he looked at me the whole way back to my seat. I was wondering what's up. A moment later he came to me, threw a bunch of CD's on my desk and said "Listen to these, there are some good songs". He had marked which songs I should listen to. In the pile there was albums by Metallica, Papa Roach, Green Day, Bullet for My Valentine and some more. I looked at them and started listening, they were all the same style (except the Metallica songs), the kinds you listen to when you're heartbroken or angry over some relationship issues. The first song contained a video of someone beating up someone, like 80's style, then a Metallica song started playing. I could hear "Gavin" listen to Bullets "A place where you belong". I went through the CD's and in one I found a piece of torn paper, with my name on and a list of the songs I should listen to, the numbers. There was number 4, 14 and the rest I can't remember. The cover was red, it was supposed to be a Green Day cover, but looked more like Papa Roach "Love Hate Tragedy" - album. I looked at "Gavin", who looked sad and disappointed. I hid under my desk and kissed the paper only to notice this guy from work looking at me. I tried to cover up kissing the paper and I put it away and continued with whatever I was doing.

Planecrash

We we're on a company business trip. Most of our office. It was in Sweden and when we're about to leave there was a problem with the plane. We took off normally, but suddenly when I looked out of the window I saw we were flying between buildings, really low. The plane made loops and all kinds of things and I was sure we were going to crash any minute. Then we made an emergency landing. The airline informed that we need to take off again, from a short lane, so there'll only be about 100m of runway and a jump at the end so we can reach 400 kmh. I thought we are going to die. The captain didn't look too experienced and I said I want to take the boat home. Everyone said I was not allowed, that I have to fly home. They also said the flight would last for approximately 4 hours. I thought what the hell, it should take an hour. I saw a piece of ground being moved to make another runway for another plane and then it was our turn. I took my co-worker inside the terminal, since it says on our timetable we had lunch at 15:30 and then one hour later was the take off. We went inside the terminal only to notice we'd have to go trough security and everything AGAIN, and there was no time for food since the lines were so long. Suddenly we were back in the plane, which was covered in red velvet from the inside. I sent "A" a text saying we're delayed and it'll take 4 hours!!! for the flight, he just said he'd wait for me at home. When the plane took off I could just think about "Gavin", that if we're going to crash I want to be next to him on the plane... (wtf!??!)

One messed up party

We were at a friend’s house, she was having a get together weekend, party sort of thing. It was just a few friends, my sister, “A” and me. Everyone else was drinking except me, I only had one drink, orange or pineapple juice and just a small amount of vodka. They had a huge house and we were all sleeping downstairs, my sister in the middle room, beneath the stairs. Me and “A” in a room to the left and my friends to the right. There was yet another room, that had its own bathroom. “A” started feeling sick so he went to the extra rooms bathroom but couldn't throw up and I suggested we'd change the room so he's be closer to a bathroom but he switched back and forth between the rooms.


Then when I thought everyone was settled and ready to go to sleep everyone got up and continued partying. Outside there was a smaller house where a lot of people had gathered. I had still had only one drink and I ran to the house and it felt like I was super drunk and I fell and rolled for a while on the ground, I couldn't stop and I got a lot of sand in my mouth. I tried to spit it out and rinse it out but it didn't want to come out of my mouth and I nearly choked. Everyone thought I had more than just one drink. “A” was checking out every single girl there, that he didn't know from before and there was some blond girl who was really thin, like a model and she had a top that showed her nipples through. He was checking her out and then she made a move and I got really pissed off, threw my iPhone on the ground so that it broke in half. The only thing keeping the phone together was a pink rubber cover. i took my phone and started beating that blonde and another girl who were all over "A".


I was really angry "A" so I told him, fine if you want someone else do whatever you want! I went to find his smokes since mine was out. I found his pack, empty. People had smoked them. I then found a basket full of smokes but a girl who went to the same high school as I did (a bitch!) took them from me, suddenly it was her party, not my friends anymore. I felt drunk as hell, even if I still had only had one drink. Everything was really confusing. Then I saw “A” walk away from the party with a girl who is a friend of his. He had cut his hair and I went and asked what's going on and the girl said I have to leave him alone. He looked really sad. I had no idea of what was going on. Then I saw my sister and my friend and I got some cigarettes from them. We sat down and talked for a while. Then I saw “A” coming back, and his hair was like it is now. I thought everything was really weird.


The next I remember was that I had blood on my hands and I saw “A” get dragged away by some bad man. He dragged “A” to the other, smaller house and the bad man held a lot of the guests hostage. He threatened to cut “A”s penis and balls off. “A” was already bleeding from other injuries. I was crying because I thought the man was going to kill “A”. “A” said everything will be fine, that we'll be fine even if the man would hurt him, as long as he would get to be alive and together with me. All I could think was that I don't want him to get killed but if that bad man hurts him we can never have sex again, but I'd still get to be with him, but still no sex. The bad man gave me 5 minutes to get things fixed or he'd hurt “A”. I was crying hysterical, was nervous and tried to find my phone. I found it only to realize it was broke, now already in 3 pieces. I tried to wake up people by bursting in to their rooms and asking for a phone. I don't remember what I needed to do for the bad man.. I never found another phone so I tried to put my broken phone together and I tried to call the cops. Every time I got my phone together and was able to get through to the cops my display went black and I could not use the navigator to see where we were. I got to tell the woman cop we were in Nebraska (WTF!??!) and then closer and closer to where we actually were. The cops were getting closer and I finally could tell them where we were. And they found us. I had got cuts from the glass of my phone (when my phone broke it was the iPhone 3g but when I found it, in 3 pieces it was the new iPhone 4). I was so happy I got “A” back, in one piece even if he had cuts and was bloody. We went to a room and were about to have sex, when that girl who had tried and hit on him, had suddenly turned brunet and she was naked and came in the room. I told her to go away that he doesn't want her that can't she just leave us alone. She pushed herself on him so I was "fine, 3 some then, but I decide!". She was the most flat chested girl I had ever seen and “A” started licking her right nipple and I her left, but it felt like licking a guy who has no chest hair. Then we went on the bed and I was on top of “A” and that other girl was trying to come between us but I pushed her on the floor... the end.