Public nudity

I have seen 2 different dreams about public nudity this week (been so busy I haven't had time to write them down).

First I think it was on Monday I dreamt I was going to the hospital to this very embarrassing examination (which I have to go through in real life). The hospital looked like a normal hospital but none of the rooms had doors and some were missing walls. My examination room, where I should be almost naked whit my lower half bare for the doctor had no door, actually only 3 walls too and it was kind of outside with a path in the forest going by and there was a man of different ethnicity looking as he wished to see something. I told the nurse I will not strip in front of other people than the doctor and certainly not in front of some gross foreign men who have no respect for women even in normal day to day life that he is there only to look at my private parts. She said that the hospital is trying this new "openness" thing between people, so that people would learn that nothing is embarrassing and learn to look at other people naked. I told her I'M NOT GETTING NAKED! I'M NOT GOING TO GET EXAMINED IN A HOSPITAL WITH NO PRIVACY! 

The other dream was probably the following night, on Tuesday. I only remember we were in the forest, was some outdoor happening, might have been with my co-workers, at least some of them. Suddenly I was naked and why, was because there was something I wasn't supposed to do with my clothes on. Later I was going to eat whit my mom, it was some kind of a terrasse and the table was like a park table with 2 benches. Suddenly I was naked again, with only a white hat to cover my private parts. No one else seemed to notice I was naked but I was so embarrassed. My mom said I had to be naked to be allowed to sit and eat, but no one else was naked and I refused to sit down with my boobs bare, since I could't hide them and my other private parts and eat at the same time so I just stood against a wall trying to cover up myself.

I read from the dream analyse thing that dreaming about nudity like this is because I'm trying to hide something, even though I'm not. I think it's only because I'm so against the doctors appointment and it will be the most embarrassing thing I ever have to go trough and I don't want to do it, but I have to and I just hope that day would be over, but it's 2 weeks of waiting on something I don't want to go trough. If ti was a lady doctor I think it wouldn't matter but these kinds of doctors tend to be male and I really don't want any man, if I hope it's some old guy, I'll die if it's some young guy... If I ever have to go back, if they aren't able to fix the problem this time I will demand a woman doctor. And the last thing I will allow is students to attend my appointment, since my hospital has a deal with the University, but I won't allow any other people to be in the room than me and the doctor and a nurse if it's necessary.

Blue cake and raw meat anyone?

During the weekend I had several dreams that I could remember, however I have now forgot all but one and a piece of one. One dream was about food, me and "A" had made dinner and while I was eating (it was pork or chicken) I noticed that some was still raw and I tried to eat around the raw parts, and a weird thing was that the raw parts were on the outer side of the meat, not in the middle as it should be... . Another dream was about a blue cake. We were at "A"'s summer place with his cousin, "Niccie", and her family. I stood in the kitchen which was like our kitchen at home, except for a baking desk in front of the window. When I looked out of the window the scene was a mix of our home yard and their summer place cliffs. When I went outside it was their summer place, although it didn't look exactly like it does. Anyhow, I was supposed to bake a birthday cake for Niccie's mom and Niccie was supposed to help, but she run around outside. Every now and then I asked if she was going to help me or what.. and she always said she'd come in a minute. I was almost done with the dough and imagined a cooked blue cake in my head and remembered I should make it blue, but I couldn't find the blue candy color and remembered I had thrown it away (I have or had, maybe thrown away the blue candy color I had at home).

Grandma making a mess

Finally I can remember a dream, although I'm already lost parts of it but here's what I do remember. I had organized my closet and all my clothes were in perfect order. Some how my sisters clothes and my boyfriends clothes were also in the same closet and I was supposed to go through my sisters clothes and organize them too, but i had to go out somewhere. When I got back home (which btw was way different than my house) I saw my grandma doing something with all our clothes. She had come over to clean the closet, which I had just did. My mom said I should let her do it and I said I had just done it and now she's ruin it all and I have to do it all over again. Then my mom assured that my grandma will put everything in the right order and there's no worries. But when she was finished all our clothes were in random piles. "A"'s shirts were in a pile with my clothes, my sisters underwear where my clothes were and so on and I was so mad and annoyed and tired that I would have to separate all our clothes and then organize them all, once again.... In this dream there were a lot of other things and details that I can't remember anymore, all I can remember is that there was a knit blouse that was blue and it had big loopholes... I think it was supposed to be my boyfriends, although he would never own anything like it.

Running from the devil with Rachel Weisz

September, 2011

It all started with my sister and I being on a trip. Some friends were there too. We took a room in this old house where Rachel Weisz and at that time the man was [dammit I forgot who it looked like]. We payed the room and then we went to a zoo, or aquarium. There were these huge water tanks with different kinds of sea creatures in them. In one there was these weird slimy dark brown things that sucked things inside them, and other scary dangerous creatures. We wanted to swim in one, but to get to the one with the seals and dolphins we had to kind of walk through the other containers, somehow hanging on the edge and walking on the seams of the tanks. I was dead scared I would get grabbed in the foot by those brown slimy sucky things. We managed to get to the seal and dolphin pools. They were separated, with a wall between them and we were hanging out in the middle, in the water, fully dressed. I was thinking how would I get my jeans and shoes dry. We played with the dolphins and seals for a while, they were doing tricks. Then we got back to the house. We had rented a room for 3 days. The house was an old white villa and really nice. I remember I painted my fingernails green and Rachel was there painting hers red. They were green too at the beginning. my sister was somewhere out with the rest of our friends. I had both my cellphones on a bureau downstairs because we were hanging out with Rachel. The man, Rachel's husband [who was some actor but I can't remember who] came and seemed really mad. He started getting more mad, I didn't know why and Rachel said we have to run. The guy was like a monster, chasing us. I had just painted my left pinkie red so I smelled of nail polish. I run upstairs and tried to find a hiding place. I found a small space between a wall, like some kind of a flower pot shelf. I noticed there was a crack in the wall and pushed it and found out it was a door. It was an old closet, which had been made to a tiny tiny toilet. I have no idea how anyone was able to go there on their "business" since I sat on the toilet seat and had my feet on the sink. I could see the man come upstairs and I was afraid he could smell the nail polish. But he didn't see me. after a while I went downstairs since I needed my phone. I was thinking I had to run out and get us a new hotel room somewhere but I had no money left after booking this place. I got downstairs and grabbed my phone, tried to text my sister when I saw Rachel and that guy, who had now transformed into Bruce Willis. She looked really scared and Bruce was holding her arm really tight, hurting her. He suddenly turned bright red, like the blue man group guys but red instead of blue, and his clothes was like a shiny tight jumpsuit. Then he started coming closer to me so I hit him, in the nose so that the tip broke. He got furious and I managed to run out, he followed but at the door he's appearance changed back to normal. The street was full of small children and I said to him "You wouldn't hurt me in front of all of these kids would you...?". He looked at them and at me and closed the door... Then I woke up.

Night terrors

Friday, September 30, 2011

I have this thing called sleep paralysis. And during these paralysis periods I see night terror dreams. They feel real, more than a normal dream and it's always the same dream, a cat that jumps on to the bed and walks on me, over my blanket and meows, sits on me for a while and then jumps on the floor, or then it's some person in my room who sits by my bed, stares me in the face and then starts slamming the bedroom door and I yell stop stop.. When I wake up I'm really scared. This only happens when I fall asleep on my back or roll over on my back (normally I sleep on the side). These also have only happened when I've slept alone, so not in a while, not since my boyfriend moved in with me, probably becuase we sleep so tight to eatchother I have some connection to my body all the time. However, last night I fell asleep on my back. First I dreamt that I was still living at my parents house and our old guineapig had it's cage in my room. I got home and saw it lay there suffering with eyes that where shouting "help me help me" so I asked my mom to take a look at her, since I can't really deal with suffering animals. She said she'd look at the guineapig. Next day when I got home the guineapig was still in the cage, in the same postition, looking at me with the same eyes and it had started wasting away, it was all thin and dry... I told my mom it was still there... Then I woke and fellt really weird, really anguished, but I soon fell asleep again, on my back. It didn't take long until I felt horror and I felt really frightened, I knew I was asleep and somehow paralyzed. I could feel I needed to pee really bad but I was asleep and couldn't move. I lay there what seemed lika a couple of minutes, feeling really scared. Then I woke up and realized it was again night terrors caused by the sleep paralysis. 

Wrooom....

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

This is the second time I dream the same thing, I'm driving a motorcycle, a matte black Yamaha R6. I'm about to drive on the highway but even if I'm only driving about 50kmph it feels like I'm going a lot faster and I need to slow down to 40kmph. Luckily there is a lane because of construction work so everyone has to drive 40kmph. I'm driving pretty good but I have no idea of how to shift so I'm driving with the first gear the whole time, and the bike sounds like it and I'm embarrassed and afraid it's going to heat up too much.

What, where, who...?

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

I've dreamt really weird and messed up dreams, felt like 5 different dreams inside the same dream, but nothing really clear, like last night I was ordering food in the middle of the night and my sister and a couple of friends had already ordered, 2 had some creamy sauce and my sister had potatoes and beef and when I asked what the prize was they all said something between 4-5€ and that it's so expensive and not worth paying for, I just thought it was really cheap (since dishes like that normally cost 10-15€). Suddenly I was at this guys, "Larry's", place I used to hook up with. My friends where going through some things in his living room and I was asking what they were doing there and aren't they afraid they'd get caught. They asked me to join them, can't really remember what we were doing. Then I heard "Larry" and his fiance talking in the kitchen and I thought I'd sneak out before they see me. He noticed me and came to talk to me, wasn't even surprised to see me, seemed more happy. He pushed me against the wall and was super flirty and I asked what he was doing, what the hell had gone into him. Then there was some place where everything was pink... And 2 other places but I can't remember what they were.