How I want you

I was back at DB (again, but nor sure if working or just visiting). Me and some collegues stood at the line in the canteen.  Suddenly Gavin was right behind me. I took my fork and knife, and I could feel his breathe on my arm and my neck. I stayd cool, although thinking how I want him. We started talking about this derivatives case, that involves the police and a former collegue. Suddenly that guy was there with us, dressed in only white. I then noticed that I forgot to take a tray, when there arctually wasn't any. My former best friend at work told me they have their own, but I got to borrow one from the kitchen. Then I was at the juice bar and man was there lots to choose from so I had 3 different kinds, of which one was berries. Then when I went to the salad bar, Gavin followed me and while he said something about the case, he kissed me on the cheek. We sat at a table, Gavin next to me, and everyone else around, but leaving no room for the guy in white. Gavin had 3 white gold rings, one manly with stones, some "just a ring" and an engagement ring, but so did I, have my engagemnt ring on. There was this sexual tenaion between us during the meal and discussion with the other collegues.

Past 2 weeks

Again, I've had lots of dreams, but mostly get interrupted and have to react to the babys needs and quickly forget about the dream, or small details. Besides semi realistic things (like things about the baby) I've seen:

I got my old DB job back. I started, the former CEO had not got fired and said "We should've never let you go, everyone was right that you are great at what you do". Gavin was still working there, and had his own team (which he actually now has, but I did not know that then). He never really noticed me. I asked what I should do, since there was still that blond temp doing what I used to. I told that asshole CEO that I've been looking at "my" old webpages and found lots of flaws, so he said If I wanted to, I can start correcting them, so I did. 

At a shopping mall, super expensive, did not afford to by C anything, but was still looking at baby clothes and stuff. Then I went to look at hand bags and everything was super expensive. For a bag that would normally cost around 100-150 eur was everything between 600-1000 eur. 

There was thins empty big room, like an middle of nowhere office or youth cafe or something, with big windows on one wall. I had to watch C since she had shat up to the middle of her back. There was no lighting, just the light from outside. There was a shower and a white old dirty shower curtain, but you could only cover one wall of windows, so either everyone walking by or anyone who was looking in from the yard side. I had to shower too since I was then in shit, but had to struggle with the curtain and C in my arms and it was a pain in the ass. Then I put it up on one wall with these Ikea curtain hangers, and when looking at it from outside, it was showing like a big tarpaulin. 

Lately

I've had dreams, but forget them almost immediately after waking up. Most have been pretty realistic, like me bathing our baby (let's now call her "C"), and she's about to drown, and I quickly take her up from the bathtub and in a panic put her on her side so she can cough out the water or that A has brought her to sleep in our bed, and just when I'm about to wake she's falling off the bed and I grab her, at which point I have woken and grabbed A instead :D.

Last night I had a terrible headache, and when I woke I felt feverish. I had 2 dreams. One where I was abroad in a shopping mall and while A was in one shop I looked around and found a toy/children's clothes shop. There were lots of clothes on sale and while looking for something for C, I found a Burberry satin romper, for myself. I tried it on and it was perfect and I thought I can use it as a party top with jeans or just a sexy pre-sex outfit with A. I was unsure of the price since it had so many prices and percentages on, like 85 and 65. The cash register boy however took 35 eur for it. 

The second (now in the morning) I was driving home from A's cousins house and took a new road and it was super steep and I was thinking "oh no shit", but I continued driving. Then I was on what looked like a light blue roller coaster and I kept driving on the rails, even upside down. I was super scared. When I was almost done, though at the bottom, I stepped out of my car to take a breath. Then I found out that the whole thing was filmed and I saw a piece and I was there happy, jumping around, and drinking, though I had no memory of any of it, I had just been driving a roller coaster road for apporx. 2 minutes. 

Oh I did have 3 dreams, one was something about me being at my sisters workplace (at the stables) and the ranch owner had started their front yard project so everything was torn up. 

Past two weeks

I've seen lots of dreams, but mostly get waken up by my bG or one of the cats, or A, so I have a hard time remembering the dreams. All I do remember is that most have been pretty "normal", could happen in real life stuff, and then in one dream I parked my car, the tire started smoking, then my car got on fire. I was thinking "great, now I get the insurance money and can buy a 5-door car", and so the fire stopped an my car was fine. And last night we had to move back to our old apartment, for some weird reason. The current residents just had to leave and we were there in the middle of their stuff. I started gathering their things they had just left there so we could live there for, I think, 2 weeks. 

Shopping

I was with a friend (and maybe my sister) out "shopping". I was holding my friends bags, so I had 3 or 4 and was saying "hope no one thinks these are all mine".. that I'm some "crazy bag lady" and was fooling around with the bags. Then I noticed a pair for light blue Chanel shoes on a top shelf. I really wanted them, but they were 225 bux. And I thought it's way too expensive for me, with my parental allowance. 

Choking baby and back to work

My bG was vomiting and had really bad watery diarrhoea. 

I was back at work, don't really know who had hired me back or what I was supposed to do. I started cleaning up the web page mess the blond who was working in my place had done. My sister sat next to me, doing something. Then Gavin went to the coffee machine, like I' never left that job. Then Irina came and said "that's misspelled..!", I told her I'm not finished, asked what product page and hadn't even started on that one. The amount of errors on the page made me say "I just wish I had my own pet shop".

I heard weird sounds from the baby monitor and went to check on my bG and her mouth fast full of some stuffed animals filling and couldn't breathe, so I started to take it out and there was just coming more and more out of her mouth, but she was able to breathe better for every piece I took out. 

Fluffy cats and crazy neighbours

I was sleeping with my bG next to me, and on of our cats, who was super fluffy and huge.

We had just moved to out new apartment and I was going crazy because of the neighbours. I was already thinking that I want to move. In front out our building they were building another house. Suddenly people had moved in. From our bathroom was an opening to an apartment which wasn't even finished (although neither was that bathroom, but it was free access to our apartment. Suddenly someone opened our door and looked inside, luckily went back out. It was some worker guy who didn't know our apartment was already finished and we had moved in. Because our next door neighbour was super loud and crazy I posted a note on their door wishing they'd be more quite because of our baby. When they saw the note the guy went all crazy. Started yelling and acting totally insane. I looked through the door eye and he was dressed like a girl, with fake lashes and everything. The girlfriend was super calm and looked embarrassed. Then I also noticed that I could get a parking lot inside, on the top floor of the building where our apartment was, was a parking lot and I could get a space right outside our bedroom window. When I did park my car there, some jerk neighbour parked his and I said I have to get my kid out of the car on his side, so I kindly ask him not to park his car too close to mine, or I have to call him and ask him to come and move his, for me to get my kid in or out of the car.