Instagramming again

Gavin and "D" had started following the same person on Instagram. 

Sex

The night before last:

I had sex with "D". Just normal sex, like we do it in real life. We fucked, normally, me on top, and I was teasing him by playing with his nipples. Then he told me he was close to coming so I got off him, wiped his dick and gave him head, carefully though starting by kissing him from his nipples down going down to his balls and then up along the shaft, trying not to "taste myself" at any point. He was moaning and making his smiling "it feels so good" face and then I got back "on the saddle". 

The weird thing about this dream was that everything, except the room and bed, was exactly like it is in real life.

Stressful weird dreams continues

For the past 2 nights I've seen really stressful dreams again. I can't remember the dreams from the night before last, but last night I had a couple - three dreams, which are mostly a blur by now but I can remember this:

Some fat around 45-year-old guy had a cut in his head and a tick in the cut. I tried to avoid him like he could somehow transfer the tick on to me. I was really grossed out and stressed about the tick.

I was at "D"'s place cleaning his bedroom (it didn't look anything like his bedroom but in my dream it was). There were clothes everywhere and I was starting with putting dirty clothes in piles, one for dirty sheets, one with dirty clothes and another with sheets or such. At some point one of his sisters came in the room and we talked about something. I also found some new, new orange socks that I put in to a bundle and on a shelf or in a basket.


I was sitting in a group of people, next to "D", and I think my sister was there. I was talking about how I could never date a guy who's fat and bald, and how things change when you actually meet a man who's not perfectly trained, rather chubby, and who's loosing his hair. "D" looked at me a bit disappointed and hurt, but I tried to correct myself saying how I meant that that's what I thought before, and I've changed, that those sort of things don't matter anymore.

The peach dress

I had my peach colored H&M lacy dress on. I was going to work and/or I was at work. I had problems with how the dress fit and sometimes problems with my ass showing. I was thinking about Gavin and "D" from time to time and about the dress and my problems with how it fit. 

There's a man in your room

Last night, quite early after I had fallen asleep I had a dream. I was sleeping and someone said "There is a man standing in your room". I opened my eyes and might have seen a shadow, but thought to myself "It's just a dream". 

Cats & Cops

During the weekend I've had dreams about cops and cats. I can't remember details anymore, but it's been mostly stressful dreams e.g. where I have to do a breath test while driving, one of my cats (new or the old one living at my parents) not obeying me or slipping out and I have to chase it and try and catch it, or some other similar "stressful" situation with a cop or cat. Although, the dreams has never had both at the same time. It's been about the cat or cops.

Only a few dreams during the past few weeks

I've only had a few dreams (that I can remember something off when I wake). I've seen 2 dreams about my cat. One where she was running outside, mostly following me around, like a dog, without a leash and sometimes she was on a leash. I also had another dream about her but that's all I know.

Then a couple of dreams have been about my job. Since I'm leaving my mind is playing tricks with me about it. One dream was about our marketing material folders. I was getting some from the cupboard and it was really messy. The later one was me geting laid off and some guy getting hired in my place, even though no one was supposed to take my place, which was the whole idea in me leaving. I wasn't getting fired so they were not supposed to hire anyone, and if they needed me back they should've hired me back. I was really angry yelling at people. 

I haven't had any nice dreams about me lately. I've wanted to see Gavin in my dreams, but haven't (so that I'd remember). Last night then (after I yesterday sent D (the guy I've been "seeing" for 7 weeks now) a message asking if he wanted to join me on this trip or not since he said he also wanted to travel to the same destination) I dreamt I got a message where he wrote "Hi, I think it's better to be single and fool around a lot for a while....". I've forgotten the end. I remembered it 10 minutes ago but, well it's gone. Normally the first thing I do when I wake is check my phone but I haven't dared to.