Little doggy

I dreamt that when I came home, "A" was at my place (He's still mad, I have not heard from him since Tuesday morning, except a 2 word message about a payment) and I got surprised since I wasn't expecting him to come to my place since he's so mad at me. He had his mom's dog with him (which didn't look anything like their dog) and the only thing I did was say "Hi" and "ooh you have "Eleanor" with you", and I petted it. "A" just stood in the hallway.. the rest is blurry.. or then that was it.. I don't know.

Topless partying

I had a fight with "A" yesterday, was really bad and I haven't heard from him since. As usual, when we're having problems, or he's shutting me out, putting me on "hold" and I dream about him, always some crazy dream with younger girls all over him but at the end I'm the one who's with him. So last night I dreamt that I was in a bar with my friends. There were topless girls all around and we we're in small tops too. I was partying quite a lot, but sad and mad, missing "A" so I decided to leave. I thought I'd go over to him, see if he's home. Once again, I took a weird subway/tram I don't quite know what it is (but it's also been in my dreams before). When I got to his building (which looks the same as his real building, but it's higher and has more houses attached to it than the real building has, just like it looks in all my dreams when I dream about his place) the yard was filled with drunk partying people of all ages. And here too, younger girls dressed in barely nothing and/or topless. I was scared "A" would be partying in the middle of all this, since I met some of his friends on the way, who told me he's is upstairs in his apartment, that there's a party in every apartment. I got scared and didn't know what was waiting for me. I realized the party was the housing company's spring volunteer work evening, which had just got a little out of hand. On the way I met lots of people, young, old and everyone was really drunk. When I got to "A"'s apartment, the door was open. I saw him sitting on the edge of the sofa, with his head hanging down, like he had passed out. He had 2 or 3 young blond girls hanging on him, trying to hit on him. I went inside and pushed away the bimbos, lifted his head to kiss him, but he pushed me away. He was really really drunk. He though I was some bimbo too, trying to kiss him. Next I remember was when he was lying on the kitchen floor all drunk and confused. I sat on him, struggled with his arms and tried to get him to focused. We talked some but I can't remember about what, he was just really drunk, something about us. I got a kiss from him, and then I was clearing out the apartment from all the people and we were again, together, just us, hugging.

What a friend...

A friend of mine was coming over to take me to a party. I had totally forgot, I was already in bed so I got up, tried not to wake "A". Then my friend acted like no one else was at home, and especially not sleeping. I tried to make her see that "A" is sleeping and we need to be quiet. Suddenly some guy was at the apartment, acting all hyper and tried to steal stuff from "A" and when I told him he can't take his things he got all defensive and then said he'd leave the stuff alone. Then when I turned my back he started it again. I asked my friend who the hell that guy is and she'd better get rid of him or she can go alone to the party. She said she'll deal with him and she just kept laughing. I got so mad I started yelling to the guy that he has to leave, if he wakes "A", "A" will beat the crap out of him and then he'll be mad at me for my friends waking him. They continued and I asked my friend if she want's "A" to leave me because of what she and some idiot friend of hers are doing? She got serious for a minute. Then when I was gonna go change my clothes "A" woke. I told him I'm going to the party that I'd forgot. When I went out of the bedroom my friends idiot friend had taken his clothes off and was going to take a shower. I got so mad I opened the door and threw the guy out, with his clothes after him. My friend then came to the door and said nooo, I didn't get to see his penis. He bang on the door and to not make "A" wake I told my friend she could go with the guy, that I don't want to go anywhere with her, so I threw her out too. They left laughing, I started cleaning up the mess they had made. Then I saw them walk outside, him naked with his clothes in his arms and her all laughing and like she was in love with him. I went back to bed, sleeping beside "A".

Unisex showerroom

I dreamt my gym had made one big unisex showerroom and a very open one so no way to hide from ugly fat men looking at me, so I decided I would from here on shower at home. Also the infra-sauna was more like a lounge, people sat there in their normal clothes like jeans and so on, reading books.

Someone's switched my brain with porrige

Lately I've been seeing alot of dreams, but I hardly rememeber anything one minute after waking up. The dreams have been long, most of them nightmare:ish and most of the time I have woken up sleeping on my back (which i never do normally). I know I have, for over a week now seen messed up dreams and I'm confused, sad, scared of my bf leaving me or feeling down when I wake. unfortunately I can't remember anything else than parts from last night, but I'll try to write down wahtever I can remember from the next night forward.

The night before last:
I had a really weird dream. Woke. Fell asleep and dreamt that I told my sister all about the dream I had before.







Last night:
First I had a dream where I was with my parents and aunt and her husband on the way to the Alps for a ski trip. Suddenly I was alone in my aunts husbands car. Driving it with summer tires on a partially snowy and icy road. Then the road became slippery, I couldn't see much. the front window was really narrow and I was staring the car with a joystick, a play station remote and hardly reaching the pedals in the front since I was sitting in the back seat. I could barely control the car. Luckily I made it to a rest stop and I told everyone I'm not driving anymore, that I'd stay where I was. Then I was with a friend and my dad, we went inside some cottage type restaurant. Then my dad said it's ok if I want to smoke since he can see I'm stressed so I bought a pack of cigarettes (I think I said the brand loud in my sleep). Then my dad started planning that we'd stay there because we could drive to 4 different ski resorts (one near our home - even though we were in a different country!!). Then me and my dad went out, were supposed to move the car and he was driving. In a downhill he lost the staring of the car and we were spinning 100 kmh down the icy road, cars and snow coming towards us. I thought I'd die, but we made it. Then we were back in the cottage, suddenly with a bunch of my friends and acquaintances. A friend of mine was dating my ex, but he still kept suggesting things to me, one friend said my boobs were huge and might it be because of "A". Then when I lay on the couch with "A" someone said something and then suddenly a chef from "A"'s work shouted some nasty thing from the kitchen. Then I woke.

The second dream was about "A" breaking up with me. It was a normal day, I think he was picking me up at work. In the car he was all quiet and then suddenly he said "This is now over". I was like "What? What's over? Us?" and he said "I can't deal with your negativity" and I said "WHAT!?!? I've been everything BUT negative lately!" and he said "Yeah well your still negative all the time". Then everything is black until I saw myself sending him a bunch of messages telling him how we've been and I've been the past weeks and that everything has been perfect and asking him what the hell? And all I got was "I can't say". Then I woke up.

Billionare/Trillionare

I had won the lottery. So typical freaking out when you realize you have the right line, but then on top of that when I looked at my gambling account and it said I had 86 or 68 (can't remember which) billion or trillion (LOTS of zeroes). A weird thing about the line was was that there was two number 4, one 9. The rest I can't remember but what makes the line weird is that there can't be the same number twice, but I had it and the winning line had it, and the money had already popped up on my account.

Crazy week

I haven't had time to write down my dreams from the past week, but here is what I can remember:

Tuesday:
Some knocked 4 times on my door, when I heard it I woke and it was 4:44am.
I'm not sure if the knocking was a dream or not but I think it was, since my bf usually knocks and doesn't ring the bell and we weren't sleeping together that night.


Wednesday:
I was a man, sometimes seeing the dream from my eyes, sometimes from a bystander (like whey you're watching a movie). I was dropping off my kids at some friends house, his mom and he was supposed to look after them. When there they drugged me and took the kids somewhere I couldn't see them. After a while of trying to fight it I passed out and when I woke i could hear that guy and his mom arguing. Everything was blurry but I could see the door was open so I ran out, hitting the walls almost falling all the time since I was still drugd. The guy who was supposed to be my friend noticed it and started running after me. I ran through the yard, which had this small play house on it, then suddenly I was in the woods and it was really dark, I could barely see anything. I ran as fast as I could hitting my head and face in some trees on the way. I could hear how that guy and his mom were following me. I was beat, woozy, cold, scared and hurt from hitting so many trees on the way. I found an old warehouse and hid there. I remember how I was telling my dream me (the guy who I was in my dream) that it was stupid to hide in the house, they will find me there, I should've just kept running. Then I could hear the door open and that other guy saw me and laughed and said something suggesting I'm dead. Suddenly I saw this crowbar or hook or something beside a very high cabinet and I grabbed it and on top there was my brother (my dream brother, since I don't have one) saving me. He pulled me up so the bad guy couldn't catch me, but suddenly he took this saw, electronic thin blade and started threatening me with it so I fell on the ground, tried to grab a rope but I slipped and down on the floor I could see the bad guy standing on top of me about to hit me with.. something (axe, club.. I can't remember). Then I woke up.


Thursday:  That someone was again knocking on my door. This time I got up and looked through the door eye but the lights were off in the hallway so I couldn't see who it was. The knocking continued and I went to look again. This time I could see someone was looking in from the outside through the door eye. Suddenly I had the neighbors 2 girls over and then someone knocked and the girls run to the door and I told them not to open but they wanted to go home and opened and there was this long thin blond guy trying to get in. The girls got out even if the security chain was on, and I tried to keep the man out. When I got the door closed the man stood in my living room. He said he was so thin he could fit through the hole. I asked scared and angry, shouting, why he's doing this to me and what have I done and why does he want to hurt me. He said "Right, you ... -girls always think like that" and I said I was calling the cops and then I can't remember more...



Thursday:
I was going to this shopping mall to buy a sexy nightgown that was on sale. When I got to the store it a was wine-red babydoll (not sexy at all but in my dream it was super sexy). Then a friend of mine suggested, pushed me against the wall, and wanted me to buy a pair of underwear instead. They were something a granny would put on. Like 80DD wine-red lace, see through nude tone parts.. NOT SEXY on me. I never bought anything. There is a gap between the nightgown part, something about food, might have been burgers, and then suddenly I was in a toilet and from my purse there fell a pregnancy test. I thought, "but I just took one and it was negative". So I heard a voice say "you can't trust the first so you're supposed to take a second test a few days later". So I though, fine.. I wasn't pregnant two days ago so how could I be now. The toilet was SO nasty I couldn't sit on it. I covered the seat with paper but I still couldn't sit down since there was pee water almost to the top so I saw a jar on the floor and peed standing up, on the pregnancy test. When I was finished both lines turned red and I was horrified. Then the "pregnant" line disappeared and I was so relieved. But 2 minutes later the first line appeared again and a check box where it said pregnant turned red. So it meant I was pregnant. I was terrified and was only thinking about how I would tell "A" and should I get an abortion or not what if it was my only chance to get a child but then again my whole life could be ruined because I couldn't afford a child at this point... then I woke.